Oct 27, 2010
so much for the whole boob job thing im so mad at DH.. some of you may think its ridiculous that id be mad he said no to something like this, but i dont think its ridiculous. im the type of person that likes to treat ourselves as long as we can afford it.
after i am finished with my laser surgery for stretch marks and after my winter clothes are purchased, we will have an extra 416 dollars to put into savings a month. 416. that is 10x the 40 dollars we are putting in right now.
a boob job would cost 90 dollars a month. so we would have 326 dollars extra to play with, STILL. even AFTER a boob job. i bring in 240 a month. i think 90 a month is more than fair to me. he knows how bad i want one. and he knows how much better i would feel about myself if i had one. and he knows how important my looks are to me. he knows how much i obsess over it.
if you think im being selfish or immature, please refrain from telling me. this journal is purely to vent.
this is the part about marriage i HATE. i feel so controlled. i am not used to having to get permission from someone before i do something i want to do for MY body with MY money. it is something that is going to take a lot of getting used to.
i had a baby, i birthed his kid. his body didn't suffer for it, so of course he doesn't care. but i care. i want to be able to treat myself.
well i told him not to even dream of having another child because if this is going to be how cheap he is when it comes to repairing my body after a baby, then i wont have another one. i dont want another one anyways.