Oct 28, 2010
So as winter approaches it seems like i am doing everything i can the list goes on and on.
I am taking my drivers test again today and i hope to god i past i cant afford to keep failing it is driving me nuts, i know how to drive. Just a nervous wreck when i testing lol. I have a piece of **** car that keeps dying for no reason, I have to get insurance and registration because i do not want to walk outside with 3 kids in the snow, and cold. Its so much stress and all my bf can do is complain about everything.Telling me to get rid of my car, or spend tons of money to fix it. AGG!
Last night in the middle of the night Mckenzie woke up i sat in her room for a hour waiting for her to sleep but she didn't want to, so i left and she started screaming and hitting the door, so my bf gets up to go get her and i tell her that he better not because i am not going to stay up all night because she wants to play, then he ******* me out because he has to wake up at 5am everyday to go to work, and he doesn't want to hear her cry all night.. LIKE omg boo freaking hoo, i have been getting up with her since she was born, not to mention i have to do it with the next one, so when the new baby comes and its crying i am suppose to keep it quiet because he has to work in the morning like seriously. He is such a useless ***, and i mean it. He has never really gotten up for her EVER! and when he does he ******* to me that he has to work and shouldn't have to be getting up in the middle of the night. Like how insensitive can he get? I am tired through out the day because i am always up watching kids all the time, when do i ever get a break? NEVER! that is when. I am so fed up with his crap, he tells me i am given attitude all the time, when he is the one who is. I can't put up with this again.
I refuse to listen to his crap, and him telling me i am being a ***** all the time. I just want to have her in a routine before the new baby comes, or i am going to have a mental break down. Why cant he just step up and be a dad :( i just want to cry, i rather be a single mom then listen to his bull, and watch him sit on his *** all the time, when i am the one who has to clean, cook, and watch the kids. I can't do it anymore. I just want a break. Am i being unreasonable, is it to much to ask for someone who is suppose to be sharing the responsibility with me? Like why is it so hard for him to take on some daddy duties. I am not superwoman and i can not do this all the time.
I just needed to vent. Because i am so close to telling him to take a hike lol