Nov 30, 2010
My Goal in Life is to someday get married and have kids. I want to learn from all the mistakes I have seen in my life and in the World. I want to raise beautiful heathly kids that I will love no matter what. I want them to have parents that love them for who they are, who care and appreciate them. I want them to feel like than can come to me and feel like I want judge them or get angry.
I'm fifteen. Jamie, he is my boyfriend for nearly a year and a half, other than that .. I wouldn't be here today..He's all I got. My father left my mother, my twin and I when I was one. Ever now and agein he gets in contact. He struggles to keep relationships and moves onto different girls quickly he suffers from depression ( When he's depressed thats usually when he gets in contact) my mother Is a single mother and has raised me and my sister up all by herself. Shes very busy and stressed out most of the time. I find it very difficult to talk to her. She suffers from anemia? And is constantly tired and grumpy. We aren't very close at all. I struggle to talk to her about the most important things that go on it a young teenagers life like first bra, first period and sex. She doesnt ever try to understand. Me and my boyfriend recently became sexually active.. we both talked about it several times. Only concern at the moment is a unplanned pregnancy. We are both SUPER save but are only relying on the condom as I am only 15 I'm not legal but will be in 20 days...but that its self is a whole new drama. I dont really have many friends as they have all changed and moved on. Jamie's all I have I get depressed sometimes.. and self harm. I have a bit of a eating disorder and sometimes do not eat. And Have I problem with sleeping I usually stay up to 2am and wake up and 8am. That's my life so far.. My future goals are to move out of home and get away from everything here. To get married and Have a few kids.