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No more tears

Dec 14, 2010 - 1 comments

This emptiness i file inside  i wander if will ever go away  ....
I try to find an answer a clue why mi FET fail  but is like a drop in an ocean ,

Now i am afraid to try again  and am terrified of a new fail only when i'm thinking off  ,  But again i file i have no more tears  just a hole in middle of mi chest ,  i went shopping  and thought il file better but in mall just allot of mothers with their baby's  , i watch tv  i c only preg women , com on is this for real ????  

I don't know  what to do, i file i lose control of mi life  now im thinking i must be strong and try again but in sec i  start  crying again .
I  know  i must be  past this  sooner or later  , and when  i will file i  better il start again to think of a new try .
Wish the best luck to every one out there , maybe one day with the God's mercy i will be pregnant an i will have a baby

Thank you so much  micheledawnrn

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by micheledawnrn, Dec 15, 2010
I understand how you feel to a point. I have been trying to get pregnant for 3 years now. But my age and having PCOS has not made it possible to have baby. I do have 2 sons who are older. I have been trying for many years for another baby. My ex-husband and I used no protection for 16 years with no luck and no with my fiancee we have been trying for 3 years with no luck. I am going to see if a doctor will help me get pregnant with the use of medicine but I am afraid he will say no because of my health issues and my age. I am 45 but I so desperately want a baby. I have even thought about seeing if I can buy clomid over the internet without prescription. Keep praying God will hear you and He can provide you with all you need in life. Maybe you wont have a baby from your body but maybe God will find the perfect child for you to adopt and raise. I am looking at adopting for us. I wish you all the luck and God bless you and your family.

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