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Jan 01, 2011 - 1 comments

Not feeling well since iv solumedrol. I don't like it. Can't seem to get my energy back. I'm all achy. My nephew really hurt my feelings the other night. I can remember being a young wife and mother way back when and the ex hitting me. What it did to my nerves, the kids, and my overall self esteem. I couldn't function well at all. Come to think of it, some of the things he would cuss me out about my neuro tells me were actually MS related...isn't that a kick. Life was turbulent as I was finding my way and unfortunately my kids suffered for it. Now, my children understand and we have pretty great relationships. I can't believe that when I went to hug L at the family Christmas get together he drew back and said, "I'd rather not." When I asked him what I did wrong he said, "Nothing in particular. Just now that I have a family myself, I've seen things I don't like and I don't want to pretend." I put my plate down, got my daughter and left. But, before I left, I went up to him and said, "Before you cast judgements walk a mile in my shoes. You have no idea what my life has been like." and then I turned and left. The hostess asked me if she did something and I told her that her son did. I was so hurt. My children were about to kill him, I think. J said it's a good thing she didn't bring her husband because he would've knocked him on his butt (which he needs) I guarantee I will never try to hug him again. J sent him a message on fb that told him he had no right to judge anyone and he has no idea what my life was/is like and how sick I am. My kids have basically written him off. What makes this almost laughable is that I didn't judge him for being 24 and getting his 32-34 year old girlfriend pregnant, is still not married, and is living off his father. In fact, I told his father that a baby is always a blessing. It's not my place to judge and I'm sure not going to start now, I just find it funny that someone whose life is in such turmoil and trouble at the moment, would think about judging me. The whole glass house thing going on. Even at that, it still really hurt. When I was dx'd with MS..finally...it was such a relief. I walked around for years thinking it was all in my head and when I found out I actually had MS? Everything let down inside of me and I became a much more relaxed person. I don't know if that makes sense, but it does to me.

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by kel1lost, Jul 21, 2011
It does to me too.  I was in an abusive relationship with my x too.  He's my lil boys sperm doner.  I won't even tell him I have MS.  He is phsyco and an alcohol and a drug addict.  I don't want him to think he will ever have a chance of getting custody of my kids if something happens to me.  It scares me to death.  They are so young and hardly know him.
       I'm sorry about wat your going through.  Air huggs!!!  Remember that song "  Don't worry...About a thing...Cuz every little thing is gonna be alright...I can't for the life of me think of the man's name that sings it.  It's an old song.  My 3 yr old sings it to me when he thinks I'm sad.  I feel awefull that he can see the pain from all of this new MS stuff and all my fears.Hope hing get better for ya!!!  Huggies,
Kelli

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