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February 6th, 2011

Feb 06, 2011 - 3 comments
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Another weekend gone, and as much as my work is busy and stressful these days, I actually look forward to going back.  After the desastrous day we had yesterday, my husband never came to bed and we have not spoken a single word today.

I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling... sadness, anger, frustration, confusion, that and much more.  I feel like with what transpired last night, things will never be the same between us.  My husband is angry that I don't want to be around him when he's on pills.  I can't trust him anymore... and without trust, what is there between two people?

I must say, I don't understand what is happening.  My husband says he wants to get help... but also says he NEEDS the pills to function.  I don't see him getting cleaned up.  In fact, I know that when I'm at work tomorrow, he will find a way to get himself another prescription of zopiclones.  

I'm scared of what's next.  The mixture of overwhelming emotions is making me feel a little ill.  My life ***** right now, and I know it doesn' have to be that way.  I'm just not sure I want to give up on us just yet... but I don't think I can go on either.  I never, in a million years, imagined I would ever be in a situation like this.  I actually don't quite understand... I wish I could express myself more clearly and concisely... my thoughts are just all over the place... I'm hurting and I don't know how to deal with all this.

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by crackerjack4u2, Feb 06, 2011
Bless your Heart Hun.  I'm sorry you 2 aren't talking, and that things aren't any better.    I'm also sorry you are having all these emotions going on all at the same time.  When you are ready you will make whatever decision it is that you need to make. My heart aches for you Hun because what you are dealing with is never easy, and it does take it's toll on you.  Your friends on MH are here if you need to talk.  Good Luck and God Bless Brenda

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by Photographer35, Feb 06, 2011
Thank you Brenda... your kind word are greatly appreciated!  I've never felt this way before and I've never struggled with anything this badly... I just don't know how to deal with it all.  I guess that I need to give it a little time and take it one day at a time!  Thanks again!

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by crackerjack4u2, Feb 06, 2011
I Pray things get better real soon Hun.  I'm sure you are struggling because you have a lot going on and a lot of decisions to make regarding it.  When I was dealing with the addicts in my life,  and finally figured out what I had to do, it was the hardest thing I ever did in my life.  I know now I'm much better because of those decisions but had I been asked at the time I don't know what my answer would have been.  Good Luck Sweetie, and yes one day at a time is the only way to go.    Hugs and God Bless Brenda

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