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dear Mr. Lortab

Apr 29, 2011 - 1 comments

I am writing this to you to let you know I am done with you.  You have controlled my life for close to ten years, drained my bank account, assisted in me losing my kids, stealing from  my friends and family.  I want nothing to do wih you from this day forward.  I was getting away from you yesterday and you popped up and yes i let you back in for a moment but know more.  I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!!   good-bye forever.

I was told to this by someone and I actualy think it might have helped.  I am just so upset that i was almost 24 hours clean and found one in the cabinet.  I think I actually feel worse today.  I am so mad at myself.  I have found a very special friend on here who has been there every minute that i have needed her today.  Its just simply amazing how a site like this can develop into true friendships.  I know i might be rambling a bit....I am freaking out again.  Keep looking at the clock.  Havent made that dr. call and its now 1:00.  I actually did feel a tad bit better last night when i took it but i have destroyed my life with them.  I am an addict and I cant just take one.  I know that now but these wds suck....bigtime.  Its like I am starting over again because i did put the poison back in my for a bit.

Well thank you all for letting me vent.........i dont know what i am doing right now.....freaking out yet once again.  

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by Neicie29, Apr 29, 2011
I know it is really hard right now and you feel like you are going to crack but keep strong! I know you can do this! And remember I am still praying for you!!!! And won't ever stop. I wish I could be with you in person but for now this is all I can do. And please stop beating yourself up? I know you feel like a failure but your not! We all make mistakes and we have to learn from them and that is what makes us stronger! You are a very strong woman and We will get through this together!

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