Apr 29, 2011
I am writing this to you to let you know I am done with you. You have controlled my life for close to ten years, drained my bank account, assisted in me losing my kids, stealing from my friends and family. I want nothing to do wih you from this day forward. I was getting away from you yesterday and you popped up and yes i let you back in for a moment but know more. I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!! good-bye forever.
I was told to this by someone and I actualy think it might have helped. I am just so upset that i was almost 24 hours clean and found one in the cabinet. I think I actually feel worse today. I am so mad at myself. I have found a very special friend on here who has been there every minute that i have needed her today. Its just simply amazing how a site like this can develop into true friendships. I know i might be rambling a bit....I am freaking out again. Keep looking at the clock. Havent made that dr. call and its now 1:00. I actually did feel a tad bit better last night when i took it but i have destroyed my life with them. I am an addict and I cant just take one. I know that now but these wds suck....bigtime. Its like I am starting over again because i did put the poison back in my for a bit.
Well thank you all for letting me vent.........i dont know what i am doing right now.....freaking out yet once again.