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What's after Success?

May 12, 2011 - 0 comments
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successful

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Depressionion

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success

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Love

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TIME

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mood tracker

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feel

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people

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Anxiety

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help

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college

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thoughts

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next

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adoption

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acheivement

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desire

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Relationships



I fear achieving my desires. How am I ever supposed to be happy with this fear?  I want to love and be loved.  But I'm afraid of loving and being loved.  I don't trust those feelings at this moment.  I want to become an occupational therapist eventually.  But I'm also afraid of doing so.  What if I don't want to do that after I've sent thousands of dollars on school and year of my time wasted?  What do I do then? waste more time? What if I fall in love and the other person doesn't actually love me?  

I want to eventually adopt, but then I fear adopting as a single mom.

What is up with this irrational thinking?  Why can I go anywhere?  Why do I feel safe and unsafe at the same time?  I want to crack out of this routine of thoughts! :o(

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