Jun 04, 2011
Ugh. I thought today was going to be a good day all the way til the end. But NOPE! It's not. I took Kaitlyn outside to play and Zakariya too, and from there I just kept getting more and more anxiety. And now I'm just so frustrated with everything. I gave Zakariya a bath because he was already getting cranky and tired and now he's asleep. Hopefully he just stays that way and so I only have to deal with Kaitlyn for the rest of the night. I hate this feeling. It just creeps over me and my chest feels so pressured. I know it's like a panic attack, but I don't even know why I have them. I have an idea, but I don't know if it's just because of everything right now or if it's like a real issue I"m going to have to deal with in my life. I hate it either way. I hate sitting here all day with nothing to do. I hate not having my own space for ANYTHING. There's no where for me to just sit and relax in this dumb house. I can't wait to be out of here already. ...........I don't even have anything else to write except more complaining and depressing crap so I'm logging out now. All I can say is that I hope tomorrow is a much better day than today turned out to be. Good night.