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Jun 04, 2011 - 3 comments



Panic Attack






bad day

Ugh. I thought today was going to be a good day all the way til the end.  But NOPE!  It's not.  I took Kaitlyn outside to play and Zakariya too, and from there I just kept getting more and more anxiety. And now I'm just so frustrated with everything.  I gave Zakariya a bath because he was already getting cranky and tired and now he's asleep.  Hopefully he just stays that way and so I only have to deal with Kaitlyn for the rest of the night.  I hate this feeling.  It just creeps over me and my chest feels so pressured.  I know it's like a panic attack, but I don't even know why I have them.  I have an idea, but I don't know if it's just because of everything right now or if it's like a real issue I"m going to have to deal with in my life.  I hate it either way.  I hate sitting here all day with nothing to do.  I hate not having my own space for ANYTHING.  There's no where for me to just sit and relax in this dumb house.  I can't wait to be out of here already. ...........I don't even have anything else to write except more complaining and depressing crap so I'm logging out now.  All I can say is that I hope tomorrow is a much better day than today turned out to be. Good night.

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by HarperOC, Jun 04, 2011
Im sorry you're going thru devote so much time to others and are sucha good person you deserve space and time for yourself too. No worries if youre depressed or down u dont need to log out, you help carry everyone on here so maybe others could offer u support. I am here for u and i support you and think u are great. Amazing mom, wife, person...reading your story was beyond inspirational, not to mention everyday u have helped keep me sober. I hope u can get some relief tonight. And that tomorrow turns out better

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by tgtiffany, Jun 05, 2011
Thank you so much :)  My husband called and after that I felt a little better.  Kids are asleep now too.  Zakariya went down easy after he woke up from the first time, Kaitlyn screamed and screamed as usual, but is asleep now.  I came to check everything again then I'm off to bed too.  Thank you so much though.  It really does mean a lot to me.  If we were closer I'm almost positive that we'd be awesome friends :)  I hope that tomorrow turns out better too, especially for you.  You don't deserve what you are having to go through!!!  You're in my prayers tonight, and always!  Good night ! :)

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by wantnormalagain, Jun 05, 2011
I really hope your feeling better, if you need to talk i have a free ear, I may not always understand but i am good at listening (reading, lol)...... thanks for all your help and advise

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