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Jun 11, 2011 - 5 comments

Feel like Im about to lose it agian. Slipping away into darkness. Mom is yelling. She is calling me names. She is throwing things. I am falling into pieces. Why cant she be nice. Do I deserve this? Can I make it through? I feel like theres no point in anything anymore. trying to hang on. Trying not to give in. Everything is just so awful now. I dont know. I dont know. We really argued. I hate argueing. So mad so depressed. Everything but happy. What is happy? It doesnt exist.

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by amylove21, Jun 13, 2011
I'm so sorry that you are not doing well. I hope you will be ok. You haven't posted anything new since when it was. It's ok though. Just wanted to comment here to see if you are allright. I hope that you are doing better now. That's awful that she is treating you like that. No you don't deserve it. I hope to hear from you soon.

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by patient49, Jun 29, 2011
Hey :)  I just wanted to respond to your entry here :)  Actually, you are very innocent and very nice! And you are going to be alright! :)  I'm going to write you a message now :)

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by 007melissa, Jun 29, 2011
Don't lose it! You need to get out or visit a support group. You and your mother. You can make it through! Try to get out and make friends. I'm trying to go and take art classes. Your mother probably has no idea what you are going through, she is frustrated. I have no idea what is going on but be happy I'm not there because I would probably tear into her. It's weird how on e can swing back in forth from ok to depressed so easily. What kind of meds are you on? You can message me when you get a chance. Hang in there.

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by innerchild09, Jun 30, 2011
Hey thanks for the replies. Things are pretty bad right now.

And transportation is a big problem unfortantly thats why I am stuck in the house. its really hard. So have no way to make friends or anything if anyone would want to be my friend. Seems like I have an anit people magnit on cuz no one in real life thinks Im worth friendship I guess.

Right now no meds, no insurance, no help. So Im doing the best I can at this time til I have insurance and have someone who will take me as a patient and all that.

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by amylove21, Jun 30, 2011
I'm sorry that you are doing bad right now. I wish you could get the help you need not just you but your mother too. Sounds like you both need it. Also you need to be able to get out of the house more.

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