Jun 16, 2011
why why why why why why why???? Thats all I can seriously ask. I dont deserve to live every single day in absolute fear...Im only 17...what am i suposed to do?? Why do i have such an irrational fear of throwing up...why does it control me the way it does...if anxiety is all in your head then why the **** does my own mind do this to me?? How can my own mind hate me so much that it makes me suffer. Ive had this severe phobia of throwing up since I was 2 and its COMPLETELY taken over my life. Im 17 and my life is complete ****. I have no life and nothing is worth living for because i seriously live in so much terror everyday that I never smile, I never have fun...I was put on this earth to suffer and if theres any ******* god out there then **** him. **** christianity and anyone who believes in god. i dont even care if I offend because if anyone suffers the amount i do then they know...this world is a horrible place and whoever "created" it is no one even close to worshipping. **** you world...you screwed me over.