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Still holding up

Jul 19, 2011 - 0 comments











quitting smoking


End of TWW

Today wasn't so bad. Not much for cramps at all. There is minimal breast tenderness, and no other symptoms of pregnancy at all.  I've been eating quite a bit more though, but I'm chalking that up to not smoking.  I'm only on week 3 of quitting, and other than my one day cheat, I'm doing great!  It's harder being here alone without my husband.  He keeps me occupied when he is here and since he doesent smoke it's a breeze.  But he's been gone over a week now, and with the stress of this pregnancy thing, it's been a rough couple days for me.  Ah, what I wouldn't give to be able to go to the store and buy just one smoke... wow.

I realized that I am not attaching myself to just one outcome here, of the pregnancy thing I mean.  If I am, I am.  If I"m not, I'm not... I sure would LOVE a positive result, but it's out of my control and in Gods hands.  I just have to keep the faith that one day, it's it's own time, I will be blessed with a child, one way or another.  And heck, if it never happens, well that's not the end of the world either right? Just gives me different opportunities.  :)

But in the meantime, I'm hoping and hoping and hoping that my period does not show up... lol

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