Jul 25, 2011
Well today I've had my second anxiety attack about hypochondria and many other things. I'm writing this in seek of someone that can help me deal with it other than my therapist because I only see her about once a week. Currently my fears deal only with health issues and idk how to get over them or ease my mind. I have went to my family doctor to get blood work done and they've said I'm perfectly helathy but no matter what a doctor says it still doesn't help.
I've had this for about two months because I got off my Zoloft and when I tred to get back on it wouldn't help like it did even when we upped the dose to 100mg. I'm afraid that the anxiety will never get better and that I will actually die from it. One big fear is that I will end up going crazy from it and start hallucinating. Can anxiety/hypochondria make someone crazy?
I'm afraid to eat/drink because I believe that I will choke everytime, so I have lost quite a bit of weight (the fear and severity of it varies day to day). I'm afraid that my breathing will stop or I'll have a heart attack from my anxiety symptoms. I'm afraid of any diseases that deal with the brain so if I have something as simple as a headache I believe I'm dying. I'm afraid that I won't be able to beat this and that I will never be able to be myself again.
Even though I can rationalize my symptoms when I don't have anxiety, I can't when I'm actually having an attack. Last night I cried for 3 hours before eventually falling asleep because I have anxiety about my anxiety. I believe that I have problems with my brain because my grandma died from a brain tumor and my uncle from an anyeurism. Last night my head started to numb and I tried to tell myself it was nothing but couldn't
My crying spells are terrible and also end up frightening me. I can cry for hours which are usually accompanied by severe shaking (to the point that I think I'm having a seizure), headaches, dizziness, nausea, racing thoughts (most are irrational and yet I fear them all), and hot flashes. Does anyone out there experience the same sort of things I do? I'm supposed to get medication to help and more therapy to follow the meds but are there any techniques that you've found to help. I'm absolutely not kidding when I say I have severe hypochondria. I cant watch, read, or listen about diseases or problems because I will convince myself that I have them. Any advice or stories will help.
Also tomorrow I am supposed to go to an amusement park...I'm afraid to ride the rides (that I've riden before) because I believe they will do something to me. (i.e. internal complications, more anxiety, blah blah blah) please respond asap because this is my last hope for help (besides being on meds for the rest of my life) Thanks...Did i mention I have all of this and am only 18...