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Oct 18, 2011 - 7 comments

I try so hard not to be jealous. I hate feeling jealous, it's the nastiest thing in the world. I try so hard to be a good mom, to be a good colleague, to be a good person. I haven't always been, and I'll probably will make mistakes in the future. But I do my very best. And when I get to bed in the evening, tired from working all day, cleaning the house and taking care of a baby, there's no one to give me a kiss and tell me goodnight.

It has been nearly 11 months since my ex decided he didn't want to be with me any more. A week before my 20 weeks ultrasound. I gave birth on myown mostely; my mom was only there at the end of it. I tried so hard to be a good girlfriend, to be loveable. The only thing I want is for someone to tell my he loves me. For someone to say: "I'll get up to feed him, you stay in bed". Someone to share not only the good, but also the bad with. To love and to hold, till death do us part, and all that jazz. I just feel really alone.

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by loved29, Nov 15, 2011
i'm really sorry ur feeling so sad. have a big hug and know we all care about u even if we're not there with u

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by CarlaLP, Nov 15, 2011
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I know it doesn't seem like it now.. but you have it ALL OVER your ex.. you have a wonderful child and what you need to do is just focus on YOU and your baby right now. Once you feel better and back on track you can get out there and meet somebody great and have the rewarding life you deserve. I don't know the whole story but forget your ex.. he doesn't deserve your time and oneday he will regret it but it doesn't matter.. HE made his choice and now you make the choice to focus on you and the here and now so you can be ready when the man of your future shows up.

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by margypops, Nov 15, 2011
Saw the side bar ..awww sorry you are feeling lonely, its tough being a single mom but you have that gorgeus boy to take care of, and good work so stay busy and join a few things here on MH ..I wish you well ...marg

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by TraceL, Nov 15, 2011
Sorry you are feeling so down, its perfectly normal to feel jealous sometimes, i'm sure we all have moments when we feel jealous, i feel jealous of people i know who don't have to work and can stay with their baby all their time but i have to work.
I have a partner and it was hard enough being on my own when Gracie was tiny when he works nights so can only imagine how you manage on your own. I'm sorry there isn't anything i can do to help out but sending you a big hug and if you need a moan or someone to listen to message me. You will meet someone eventually who deserves you, its hard work being a mum but your baby is adorable and you are a wondeful mummy x

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by adgal, Nov 15, 2011
I know we don't know each other, but I wanted to let you know your not alone, and we do care.  

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by iMazed, Nov 15, 2011
Thanks girls :) It's getting a little better now, especially since I'm doing a lot of things for me. But it's great to know I'm supported! xxx

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by maternalmamma, Mar 03, 2012
Awwww noo. Don't feel sad, i know what you mean i honestly do. Do you know what though? It will make you a stronger person and when babba is older he will be the one to care for you and tell you just how great you are because of how great a mum you are!!! (I'm sure you will have met an amaaaazing man by then though and be married and have a heap more kids and be very happy indeed ;)

Keep smiling sweetie, you will get through it! Oh and as for the jelously thing, it's a girl thing i think, i get jelous a lot of the time but i think that's because you are feeling down in yourself.

Your a star so keep on shining :)

Tara x

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