Nov 11, 2011
Today was not as bad as I thought it would be. I am just happy to have gotten through it. For ten years taking pills has been my life. I am so ready for this chapter to be over and I truly hope there is light at the end of the tunnell. I suppose the once I am able to remove this stuff from my life I am going to have address why I have always hated myself. Hating myself is why I started in the first place. People would look at me and tell me I was crazy for feeling the way that I do. They would kill to look like me and kill to have what I have. I dont get myself and why I tend to self destruct the way that I do. I want to be med free and to acutally put some effort into living a life actually worth living.
Right now I just get by and recently I have decided that is NOT enough.