Dec 31, 2011
How cool is this? I get to start the new year free of the pain pill game. Aside from a constant running nose, sneezing all the time and a once a week head games (saying maybe I could just take one, knowing full well I can't take ONE of anything)...I feel GREAT! Today I watched 4 of my co-workers shuffle all morning long to get their ****, calling all connections and asking each other if so and so came through or not. I just felt so good that I was not involved in all that. A couple guys said to me that I was so lucky. All I could do was smile and say "Blessed" is more like it and when you're done with the game you too can be free. They don't know what to say to me when I talk like that. I can only imagine that they just don't feel ready yet. Sometimes they ask me how I did it and I tell them just to hear them say "Xuck That" I think when I tell em that I first thought that I might not live through this last detox due to some health issues, but I was willing to die than live like I was, it freaks them out. My wife told me that she totally expected to find me dead some morning before I quit. I'm so glad for her that she is not stressing that sort of thing anymore. It really feels good guys,(and gals) ThankYou for all the support and help. I get to be 50 and free this New Years and one day at a time I see lotz of hope and light. God Bless you all and have a Clean New Years Night.