Oct 13, 2008
I've put on some weight lately like another 15 pounds in a week. My hair is starting to fall out. My feiance Tony tells me im still beautiful and sexy to him and he still wants to marry me. I just dont feel beautiful. the great thing is we are waiting til we are married to have sex so I dont have to show any skins so I'm good. I use to be a size 5 at 125 pounds even after 4 kids now I im a size 12 to 14 at 165 pounds all with in 3 months time its amazing I dont even eat a lot and when I do its like a saucer size plate. I just feel uuuuugggg!! I know I shouldn't feel like this but I cant help it. I cant wear any clothes in my closet. I went to the hospital to see my uncle and the first thing everyone said was that "you have gotten big" "you have gotten fat" or "you gained a lot of weight" oh yeah and my personal favorite " you have goten healthy you eatin good".
I went to the mall to try on some clothes in JCPenny's couldn't fit a twelve in there, so I went to Ashley Stewarts to and couldn't fit anything in there either. So where in the sam smell do I fit in? (sam smell) is my version of cursing. Just truely fustrated.