Jan 12, 2012
I starve myself until I binge, then I purge until I can't. It's the only feeling of control I have in my life. No one around me notices, because I'm not stick thin or sickly looking (yet. I want to be that thin. I need to be.)
I exercise for hours on end during the day, I only eat when I have to take supps or diet pills. I love the feeling of control. I need it.
When I was fifteen I was diagnosed with OCPD and social anxiety. The pills don't help. The only thing that makes me feel better is scrubbing my skin raw, or getting rid of the dirt inside of me.
I just want to find someone who feels the same way.