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Feb 21, 2012 - 11 comments

Gosh... these days are feeling like years.

Tomorrow is my next visit to my Gyn/Ob and I am just busting to find out how my little bean is.  

Please, please, please be in there, heart beating away, body growing and developing..............

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by plumber43, Feb 21, 2012
Oh Carrieanne, I will be praying for you honey! Just remember to relax and stay calm. I know how hard that is. I'm here for you.
I am sprinkling super sticky baby dust upon you!
Hugs and kisses,
Melanie

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by marsi2, Feb 23, 2012
Have been praying for you and your baby...hope all is going well!
Maria

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by CarrieannB, Feb 23, 2012
Hi Ladies

Well I come to you with a very, very heavy heart. Yesterday we could not find a heartbeat and the baby only measured 6 weeks when it should have measured 7 weeks.

With each and every one of my miscarriages I have taken it as best I could, ensuring I remained positive and accepted that this was something that I had no control over. This time however I am really mad! Mad at the universe and mad with the bullsh*t that I hear about 'Karma', 'The Law of Tenfold Return', 'Do unto others', etc, etc... My husband and I are loving, considerate and compassionate people. We help whomever we can and always keep a very optimistic view on everything. But this time I'm just soooooo over it all!

Sorry girls, thank you for your wonderful support I just really thought that as this pregnancy was so different and so unplanned (conceived when hubby made a surprise visit home) that this one was going to be the one that stuck!

Sometimes you just have to ask "WHY??????"

xoxoxoxo

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by plumber43, Feb 23, 2012
Carrieann,
    I am so so sorry, I wish I could say something to make you feel better, but I know there's nothing I can say to ease your pain! I have been where you are and felt the same way. I don't want you to think that DE are for everyone because I know how personal it is! I did, However, turn to DE after 2 years of heart ache and disappointment. All I wanted to do is have a baby with my wonderful DH. I don't care if our DNA is the same I know this is and always will be my baby. I pray for you and your DH.
Love and Kisses,
Melanie


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by CarrieannB, Feb 23, 2012
Hi Melanie

Thank you so much.  

I hear you, have read on your plight and will speak to my husband when he gets home tonight.  I know that as I am now 47 and my husband is 45 (46 in May) that our ages are really the only thing that is holding us back... so far, from looking at other options.

On a much brighter note, I am so happy for you and your beautiful baby.  I am praying that you have a 'text book' pregnancy with nothing but pure bliss in line for you!

All good things

Carrie
xo

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by plumber43, Feb 23, 2012
You are so sweet! My Dh will be 49 in April and i will be 46 in June...: )
Melanie

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by CarrieannB, Feb 23, 2012
Ahhhh you are still a baby!!! ;-)

xoxoxoxoxoxo

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by stacey10, Feb 23, 2012
I'm so sorry that the news wasnt great, I know how you feel, it can get so frustrating, when we concieve and get to a certain point in the pregnancy and then everything just stops, for us at our age I always say its not the dreaded 2ww but the 12 ww thats the killer, for me I think each time I get pregnant especially once I hit 42 I expect them all to end in miscarriage, I think its more of a coping stratagey, but as long as I can keep getting pregnant, I will try and hope that I manage to catch a good egg before they're all gone...are you taking any suppliments? I'm taking a whole list if your interested :)

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by stargazy, Feb 23, 2012
I'm really sorry to hear about your loss. I went through this in January, after a November donor cycle. Went for my 10 week checkup and no heartbeat. My heart goes out to you and your hubby! We're looking at a frozen egg cycle within the next few months. Not getting any younger here either, i'll be 47 in October and DH is 45. Feel free to reach out if you'd like to talk!

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by CarrieannB, Feb 23, 2012
Hi Stacey

Thank you for your wonderful message.

I am so sorry to read of your losses.  I must say however that you do 'still' sound so positive (something I've been each and every time... up until this one!).

No I am not on any suppliments (really have never been and just so luckily keep falling... this was our 6th pregnancy in 29 months).  Maybe that can be one of my problems.  I did start seeing an acupuncturist with my first two pregnancies and then just gave that away.  I also was on a few other vitamin suppliments... but negativity kinda got in the way of me continuing.

I would love to hear what you are taking thanx.

Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for a sticky healthy and happy baby to come your way very soon!

Carrie
x

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by CarrieannB, Feb 23, 2012
Hi Stargazy

Thank you so much for your lovely words... they do mean a lot to me.

I am so very sorry to hear of your recent loss.  Gosh and when you are looking at your 10th week you are almost getting ready to breath!  I really am so very, very sorry!

Yeah, that darn biological clock is just spinning past us... and it really amazes me as generations ago women our age were often having healthy babies.  I suppose it just reinforces what the world, the world we are destroying, is really doing to us all.

Sure it would be great to chat when ever you are up for it.

Stay happy and praying for a really healthy sticky baby coming your way NOW! ;-)

Carrie
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