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Poor Poor Dog! ;(

Mar 07, 2012 - 11 comments

I'm sitting here crying my eyes out right now because I could've prevented something and I didn't.  My mom and I were out driving around looking for vehicles, mom is looking for a car sooo we were in a different town and I was driving.  There was a nice 4-runner on the side of the road so I stopped so she could get the number.  As I pulled in to the road beside where it sat this lil dog came out to my car and even tried to get in twice. His lil face was soo cute, you could tell he was an older dog, something looked wrong with his eye and was missing several teeth.  I brushed it off as him being someones because he had been groomed recently.  SO I pushed him out of my car as I sat in the drivers seat and he kept trying to get in the back floor board, mom had the door open while writing down the number.  This lil guy kept trying to follow me...so I backed up and tried to get him to follow me back to where he came from (we seen him in this parking lot when we pulled in). So after finally not seeing him around me or my mirrors I pulled out into the road thinking he had went back, when I looked in my rear view mirror and saw he was at the edge of the road, I was praying he didn't try to go across but he did.  This STUPID lady in this car came flying down the road and she could've easily gotten over and I kept starring from my rear view mirror praying he didn't get hit but she did, she hit him.  I immediately got nauseous, all I could see was him rolling under her car.  She didn't stop or nothing, by this time I had to merge onto the highway.  All I see now is his poor little face looking at me as I pushed him out of my car.  WAS he a stray??  DId someone drop him off and that's why he was trying to get in my car? If only I had brought him home..OMG I can't stand it!!  I can't stop crying and I can't stop seeing his face when I close my eyes.  I'm sooo emotional over animals as it is, constantly trying to help our humane society find homes for their animals, I take in strays myself..WHY did I have to see this today??  I prayed and asked god to forgive me for turning away this poor dog and I prayed that he didn't suffer.  I just can't stop crying.

This IS never ending. :(
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by marsi2, Mar 07, 2012
Oh Hun....I am so sorry! You are such a good person...don't blame yourself. It was not your fault. Sending you a big hug!
Maria

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by ginger899, Mar 07, 2012
Oh what a horrible thing to have to happen! I am so sorry too. Please don't blame yourself. You were NOT to know what was going to happen next, and you would obviously think he belonged to someone, so of course you wouldn't take him into your car. I would have done the same, sent him out of my car, thinking he'll go home. That lady who hit him -well that was not your fault either. She was going too fast.
I know how you must feel. I'd be feeling like you too if I'd seen what you saw. If that little guy got hit he probably got knocked out cold, that's what usually happens, they don't know what hit them, and he most likely didn't suffer. And his little spirit is freed from this world now.
All dogs do go to heaven.
Big hugs from me too. You have a big heart, I can see that. Bless you.

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by retta483, Mar 07, 2012
Awww  you diddent know that was going to happen .  It wasnt your falt  xx Hugs xx

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by Des_a_rae, Mar 07, 2012
Thank you all so much!  I just wished I would've done more...like even went into the place where he was in the parking lot at and asked if he belonged to someone.  All these "What-if's" are driving me crazy.  I know he's better off now regardless.  I do believe dogs go to Heaven, My little Sadie is there! :)  
Thank you all so much, it really means soo much to me!!

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by Maybe-baby, Mar 07, 2012
Oh no. Don't beat yourself up for too long, I wouldn't have out him in my car, I once found a stray, luckily the owners phone number was in his tag, me and a lady waited by the road for the guy to come, he was ecstatically happy. This poor dog's accident or whereabouts isn't your fault, dogs should have ID so these things can be avoided. His think of that stupid woman tonight. And u never know, dog might be ok, maybe she got out and out him in her car and he's fine :) you never know!!

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by butterflybabies, Mar 07, 2012
How horrible. But like others have said its not your fault. A similar thing happened to me but I was walking when a dog got hit right in front of me because he was crossing the street to get to me. I felt horrible and cried my eyes out. I am a big animal lover to. I can't even watch those animal abuse commercials without crying.

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by mlward3, Mar 07, 2012
Ohhhhh noooo:(!!! Im sorry, it makes you feel so helpless.....its not ur fault! These things just happen and you cant let in every stray! He is in heaven with your sweet baby Sadie!! HUGS

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by Des_a_rae, Mar 08, 2012
Thanks so much ladies.  
Oh gosh, Butterflybabies, that would be horrible also. :(
All day yesterday I just felt awful.  Nauseous, seeing that lil guys face everytime I closed my eyes then seeing him get hit ugh!!   Today I'm feeling a little better though, I still feel just awful but I pray that he was killed instantly.  I don't even want to think about him suffering.  Still wishing I would've just brought him home but I know I can't turn back the clock, I'm just glad he's not roaming and/or possibly suffering anymore.  I'm so glad you all know how I feel, my family just don't get it.  

Maybe it's because we've all tried for years and years to get pregnant and our animals ARE our babies?  That's how it is to me anyways.  I get tired of my brother calling me "Ms Peta".  Well the way I see it, our dogs didn't choose us, even if they get a $hitty life, they didn't ask for it!  WE Choose them and should love and take care of them.  I can't stand to see animals that no one takes care of, they don't feed, don't show love or attention, lock them out in a cage in the yard all by themselves.  That makes me sooo angry.  I"m constantly calling Animal control on those who mistreat and I won't stop calling either.   Sorry for my rant, I just get soo angry when people don't take care of their pets.  I wished I could have a home for them all, but it gets expensive eventually lol.  

Anyways, thanks sooo much again!!  

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by specialmom, Mar 08, 2012
Oh, I'm sorry as I'm like you.  I get an image in my head and have trouble getting it out and certainly, a sweet dog looking desperate and sad would touch me!  I'm sure the dog has found his home by now.  And think, maybe his owners were right behind you looking.  I'm serious about that.  My dog was a runner and just got much better . . . .although I still watch her like a hawk . . . but she would take off.  We would be in hot pursuit but would occasionally lose her.  But we'd be nearby looking.  And if you HAD taken the dog and driven off------  and it was a situation like with my dog------  it would have been harder to reunite.  Things would have to match up for us to come together and know that you had my dog.  Does that make sense-----  as always I have caught up to my sweet pup and taken her right back home.  

In the split second of making a decision, we have to go with our gut instinct.  So just picture that this dog belonged where he was so that his owners could find him.  

You obviously have a big heart dear.  That's a great thing!  

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by Michelledj, Mar 08, 2012
Sorry you had to go thru this hun, so sad that that happened but so not your fault! I hope you're ok sending hugs xx

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by ConnieG, Mar 08, 2012
Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry! It isn't your fault. Everyone pretty much said what I was thinking. I just wanted to let you know I sent a prayer up for your ease of mind. There is nothing you can do. Like specialmom said, trust your instinct. It's possible he didn't belong with his owners, he should have been in heaven maybe he didn't have a good home and if you would have found it he wouldn't be happy but instead he gets to run in heaven without pain or abuse.

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