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Old Best Friend + "boyfriend" (venting)

May 06, 2012 - 2 comments
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Daniel. I miss you so much. I doubt that you even remember me. I hope you do... Do you miss me like I miss you? Do songs remind you of me, like songs remind me of you? Do some people remind you of me, like some remind me of you? Do you ever imagine us meeting again and being the best of friends all over again? I really miss you, it's been 7 years and I still haven't forgotten you. I don't know why. You were my first real friend in my life and I had to leave you, I wish I didn't. You showed me what a real friendship was, and protected me from bullies. We were so little, and I was such a crybaby. I remember, after I moved, I used to howl the moon hoping you could hear me, like how we used to pretend that we were wolves. You introduced me to your friends and we were like the best of friends. Whenever I was lonely, you'd find me. I wonder what life would've been like if we stuck by each others side from then until now, what would've happened? Would we still be the best of friends? If we met again now... would there still be a connection? Sometimes, I cry. I cry because there's a big chance that we would never meet again, and so many songs remind me of you and how we were. If we stuck by each other, would we be like those childhood friends I read in books and see in movies? How different would our lives be? Daniel.. I just.. I miss you way too much. For all I know, you could be all the way on the other side of the world dating a girl who is the total opposite of me. You could be the total opposite of who I know/remember you as. Even if that's the case, you'll always have a special place in my heart, because you were my first true friend, who showed me how exciting and fun life can be.

Jordan. You neglect me, you ignore me, and I don't get any attention. You treat me like I was yours from the beginning, and that you can treat me however you want because you think that I'll stay. If you have a problem with being seen with me, then why don't you talk to me? Don't wait for me to talk to you. You don't even treat me like a girlfriend let alone a FRIEND. I mean, how EMBARRASSED are you to be seen with me, that you won't even talk to me anymore. I was your second choice, because she rejected you. You really thought that I was going to wait for you after 3 weeks of confessing? You must be out of your mind. I left, I moved on, and you came crying back because she rejected you. I gave you a chance, and you're messing it up. Trust me, I tried my hardest and I gave it my all, so when did you ever try to save our relationship? Oh yeah, because a kiss and cuddling can make up for not being proud of me, for having a problem with who I am, for neglecting me and talking to my friends more. You're hurting me and you don't even know it. Everyone else can see that I'm in pain, so why can't you? I don't love you anymore, and I never did. You waited too long. I moved on. But even if I don't love you, even if I don't care, you not being proud of me hurts. You don't like me, you won't talk to me about your problems with me, and you expect our relationship to work? You're just so ignorant! Okay, so am I, and I'm not denying it. But at least I'm not neglecting you, I'm not treating you wrong, and I was damn proud of being your girlfriend. I didn't care how crazy you were, how weird you are, who the hell cared if we were dating or not, I accepted you and I was proud to be yours. But you just can't do the same for me, and I don't know why. What is so wrong with me, that you won't even talk to me..? Just what is it...

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2004449 tn?1327703702
by teddybearLOL, May 06, 2012
I can't stand seeing you like this Sarena. You know he won't see it til someone tells him off. And what pissed me off to see is that usually couples will say 'Happy One Month Anniversary' or get you a gift. Didn't even hear **** come out Jordan's mouth that was along the lines of that or get you a gift. I didn't see him come near you. So if he is going to be an *** like that, then it's time to tell him off. I want to tell him off SO bad tomorrow and make him feel the pain you are feeling. But, it is your guys' problem and i should not be the one handling it. I am just waiting here to support you c:

2004449 tn?1327703702
by teddybearLOL, May 06, 2012
OMG. IT CENSORED ME.
THAT'S COOL BUT SCARY AT THE SAME TIME.

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