Jun 07, 2012
Well, i drank too much, puked up blood, and landed in the ER last weekend. Not a fun time. Made it to my appointment on tuesday. She put me on fluoxetine and xanax. Im afraid to take the xanax because of all the warnings on the bottle. I've been taking the fluoxetine since yesterday morning. Its just once a day in the morning. I've found that taking a bath really helps me too. Looking forward to the weekend. My mom is taking the kids friday through sunday. Will be nice to have some quiet time. Who knows, maybe all i need is a mini break from them. I love them to pieces, but they sure do know how to push my buttons. I've also started making a quilt completely by hand. It helps keep my mind and hands busy. Calms me down too. Oh, today is my first day without a cigarette! I only had a couple yesterday, but today, I haven't had any. Hopefully i can quit. I've been wanting to for quite some time now. Since having these anxiety symptoms, I've noticed that smoking makes them worse. I'd love to quit for good. Anyways... still having the constant pressure in my head, blurred vision, dizziness, tightness in chest, tingly and sometimes numb arms and hands. Still having the sudden fears and shakiness. Short of breath. I'm getting better at calming myself down after the doctors explained that i was hyperventalating and thats why i get dizzy suddenly. I still havent been convinced that theres not something seriously wrong. Brain tumor, heart disease... might ask to be tested for that stuff in 2 weeks when i go back. If i can remember anyways.