Dec 23, 2008
I've lived with severe fatigue for at least five years now, or so I thought. Lately the fatigue has gotten worse, to the point where it's almost unbearable. The combination of lung cancer, pain, depression and anxiety are making even the simplest of things difficult.
In the past, my sleep hygiene was horrible. I went to bed at different times everyday, and woke up at different times. There was no pattern or sleep schedule. I also had developed some poor sleep habits; such as falling asleep to the television, eating before bed, etc. Sleep has been, and still is, difficult for me. I can't get to sleep without taking a large dosage of pills (800MG Seroquel & 100MG of Amitriptyline). I've tried many times to get to sleep without medication, and the result was horrible - I went four days without any sleep at all until I finally gave in and took the medications. It's also possible that I may have sleep apnea.
Thankfully, I've been able to develop some better sleep habits; no more television at night, nor any large meals. I also purchased a special watch called Sleep Tracker (www.sleeptracker.com). The watch provides detailed information regarding sleep patterns and keeps track of the total amount of actual sleep and all those moments where I was almost awake. The watch also wakes you up at the best possible time when you'll feel the most refreshed. In the morning, you upload the data to your computer which produces a graph. The watch has been a miracle device for me. I've also purchased a few sleep CD's which I play throughout the night, and I've noticed a remarkable difference in my sleep quality since using these CD's. My favorite CD to listen to at night is called H20 and is a combination of water sounds and gentle piano. It's very relaxing.
Finally, thanks to the Sleep Tracker, I'm now on a regular sleep schedule. I'm also feeling more refreshed in the morning, and am definitely seeing some patterns developing. I hope this information will help my doctors better understand my sleep issues.
Sleep aside, I'm still feeling tired and worn down almost every day. I have to push myself to do anything, it's a real struggle for me. Even taking a shower and getting dressed is huge undertaking. I think that my fatigue is adding to my depression and anxiety, which just causes me to be even more tired. I'm also extremely moody, and I've noticed that I angry at the smallest thing.
I'm literally tired of living like this. I hope that something changes soon, because I really don't know how much more of this I can take. It feels like I'm on the verge of completely collapsing.
If anyone reading this has any tips or ideas, please let me know by leaving a comment.
Thanks for reading,