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I Don't Know if I can Ever Recover...

Jan 07, 2009 - 1 comments




I am home again after 3 nights in the hospital... I had a high fever and my dr was worried I had an infection from the J-tube. Nope. They were worried I had blood sepsis ? or something... I have been on VERY strong antibiotics since the pneumonia and kidney infections so I don't understand how I could get anything else!!!

Anyway... it turns out that I have some type of problem with my intestines not absorbing nutrients. My doctor says I need at least DOUBLE the calories in my J-tube to maintain my weight... and more to gain anything! The nurses locked my bathroom because they thought I was vomiting! I was NOT. I have not made myself vomit at ALL. I am not eating much anymore because I don't have to with the J-tube.

Honestly - I think I'm just going to stay sick. I don't think I can get better.

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by peekawho, Jan 07, 2009
You can't give up.  What's the alternative if you do?

(A high fever will raise your metabolic rate, so that you'll be burning more calories, so if you're losing weight at this moment, yet still taking in your required calories via J tube, that might be why.)  

I just hope and wish for you that you will keep going, and not give up on life.  I don't know you, but I hear your pain and despair.  Please don't give up.  Follow your doctors and therapists plans, and know that you have friends and people who care.

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