Jul 31, 2012
I feel exhausted. I have been second guessing my decision not to have breast reconstruction. I feel that I made the best decision for me at the time but now I am having doubts. I guess if I keep reminding myself of the reasons why I chose this path then that should allay some of my anxiety.
I feel frustrated with myself that I don't have the energy or motivation to do stuff.
I am going to have a considerable period where I am not allowed to do any heavy lifting, etc so it seems that I will get sufficient rest/ relaxation time then. I just wish I could do stuff now.
I re-read my MRI report and that has left me feeling quite stressed and anxious. Panicky and as though I am suffocating. If I don't research the medical stuff then I feel slightly more in control. This is what my body is telling me and it maybe isn't so important what my five-year prognosis is likely to be.
Hopefully the surgeon will get as much of the cancer as he can.