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Oct 10, 2012 - 0 comments


My first thought is that someone will say something negative to this.  I struggle with this, that and the other one of which is a problem with alcohol.  Since staying with my partner and what I now call my two very special friends I have come on leaps and bounds.  Just for clarity my partner rents a room at my friends place.  What I have found is my improvement has happened through my two friends.  I have never received emotional support before from anyone apart from my Partner.  I feel extra special having love and receiving emotional support from Margaret(used a diff. name) whom is older.  I have longed for a motherly type love all my life.  At the age of 37 this may sound a bit 'Sick'.  I am not 100% happy, however my alcohol intake has greatly reduced and I haven't self-harmed so much.  Most of all though, I am getting positive thoughts and am feeling comfortable with them.  It can freak you out feeling positive when you are so used to being negative!  Love is the most important thing to me above everything.  Beanie0

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