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Sandy Grace, the end of her story and final hours

Mar 13, 2008 - 6 comments

We just lost our beautiful yellow lab "Sandy Grace" to kidney failure.  I know many of you have read my plea for help when Sandy was so sick.  Her creatine was 13.  Our vet was amazed at her will to live.  We took her to the vet thinking she had a gastritis virus.  Like all of you, we did everything we could for her.   We admitted her for 40 hours of IV fluids.  Her creatine went down to a 10.3-  We took her to a specialist hoping for a miracle.  The specialist wanted to put her down that day as ultrasound showed she had one kidney, the other resembeled a raisin.  We told the specialist, she was still eating, drinking plenty of fluids, was still sassy when she wanted to be, still walked to the lake, SHE IS NOT READY TO GO!!!!!    I think the specialist thought we were cruel, but we knew in our hearts our Sandy  wanted a little more time with us, and we wanted a lifetime with her.

Our vet sent bags of fluids home with us.  We gave her fluids, nausea meds, vitamins, everything money could buy to make her more comfortable.  I researched every piece of  information I could find trying to help her.  I read many articles about hollistic and homeopathic treatment.  My vet referred us to a vet who practiced orthodox, hollistic and homeopathic medicine.  We rushed her to him, he prescribed  seven medications for her.  They helped a short time.  The fluids helped for a while, but then nothing seemed to help her vomiting.  This is when I came to this wonderful site for help and support.  I tried the Tums like Jaybay suggested, they gave her some relief for several hours but nothing was longlasting.  She stopped eating (KD dogfood, hamburger, dark meat chicken, bacon, some steak, chicken broth with shreds of chicken,  a special mixture of raw eggs, honey, whole yogurt, babyfood, etc.)    We were constantly giving her ice water chips and pedialyte ice chips,  We realized if she lapped, she threw up everytime-if we gave her ice chips, she seemed to hold it down most of the time.  DESPERATE!!!!  I slept in the den with her, her favorite place was our loveseat.  If she got on the floor, I got on the floor to lay with her.  What else can we do, somebody please help!!!  We can't lose our Sandy Grace, she is so special!!!!  She loves us so much, she wants to live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Your thoughts are constantly with your baby, WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP HER, THERE HAS TO BE A WAY.  Then, you realize you have to let her go, how can you euthanize your baby who has been your best friend and lived her life for you.   NO, I can't do this.  I PROMISED HER I WOULD NOT MAKE HER GET BACK IN THE CAR UNLESS IT WAS FOR FUN!!!!!!!!!   NO, NO, NO.   Then you know, you have to do this for your baby.  She is not eating, she is drinking very little.  She is so weak, when she throws up, I am holding her so she will not fall.  YOU HAVE TO DO THIS.  NO, I CAN'T.   YES, YOU CAN.  You are being selfish, yes I am, I want to hold her, feel her breath, rub her tummy.  You have to let her go.  We finally made the decision to call our vet, we wanted her on her loveseat  with her bankie, I wanted to hold her as she was sedated, I wanted her to remember,  to experience our love one more time before she closed her eyes in sleep.  She would not know about the second shot that would stop her heart.  She would not suffer from the vomiting and weakness anymore.  She would be at peace and healthy forever in heaven.  Our vet was coming at 11:00 a.m. on Februay 6 to help  end her suffering.  That did not happen.  Sandy was much worse, the evening of February 5, she was constantly throwing up, so weak . . WHY DID YOU NOT CALL YOUR VET SOONER!!!!!!!  I finally got her settled around 11:00 p.m that evening or I thought I did.  She was able to rest for a few hours.  She wanted in the floor, O.K., we can do this together girl.  I helped her in the floor and I laid down beside her and put my arm around her, rubbed her tummey, pulled her ears (she loved that) and told her it was O.K. to go.   I told her how much we loved her and what a great friend she had been.  I reminded her of her funny times and told her we would hold those precious moments in our hearts forever.  She was relaxed for a while.  (You see, many dogs lose their personalities during their last days of kidney failure, but Sandy Grace never did.  She knew who we were and was still wagging her tail at us her last hours.  Even with a creatine level of 13, she was still rolling in the grass, watching the seagulls and geese  I hope she was thinking of her fun times.)  We managed to rest a short while, then she started throwing up horrible yellow and green fluids.  Dry heaves that was nearly killing her.  WHAT CAN I DO FOR HER, IT IS SO LONG UNTIL 11:00 AND HER SUFFERING ENDS.  I am holding her as she is dry heaving, she has a seizure, (first one-lasted only seconds)  Her tongue is turning black.  SO LONG UNTIL 11:00, I KNOW I WILL CALL MY VET TO COME EARLY MORING!!!!  I promised her no more fluids, she would not accept any water or pedialyte now.  2:00 a.m. . .  Sandy, I am just going to hold you, I will not bother you again trying to give you any meds or fluids.  We will just lay here together and I will hold you until I can call the vet to come earlier.

On the evening of February 5, my grandson called to say goodnight-I asked him to pray that Sandy Grace would go on her own, I called my daughter, son, sister, mom and friends to pray that same prayer,

Sandy rested until 4:00 a.m., finally she tried to get up, she wanted to lay on the kitchen floor because it was cooler.  I helped her to the kitchen floor.  She laid there for a while, I could tell she wanted to be alone, so I pulled up a chair, gave her some distance and just watched her.  I laid my head back and snoozed for a few minutes, I heard her trying to get up, I got up and helped her into the den.  Just as we got into the den, she sat just as beautifully as you could imagine, she looked at me with those wonderful eyes for a few seconds, dry heaved, fell forward in a violent lunge.  I tried to catch her, as I caught her and positioned her in my arms, I could see in her eyes that she was leaving us, I cried out loud, Lord have mercy on her, two weak dry heaves, and she was gone.  I must have held her for an hour or so, rubbing her tummey, pulling her ears and feeling the warmth leave her body.  I live these moments in my mind every minute of my day and most of the night.  

Why am I telling you all of this . . in my heart, I know I should have called our vet a few days earlier . . I didn't-she suffered that night-but my prayer was answered, she went on her own.  Which way is easier for all of you who loved or loves your babies as much we did.  I do not know.  I do know that kidney failure is a horrible thing and there is no cure, it only gets worse in time.  I have read and heard about dogs who lived for a year or two with kidney failure.  The sub q's do help bring down the toxins.  THERE IS NO CURE!!  I have been told by three vets that they have not heard of any successful kidney transplants for dogs.  Maybe someday.

I hope if you have a decision to make about your babies, you will make the right one for them and yourselves.  It is such a personal and painful decision to make.  My heart is with all of you if you have gone through this or about to do so.  Stay with this site, as you will get  the best support  from these wonderful friends you have found.  Aggieone



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by BanditPages, Mar 21, 2008
i haven't even finished reading this post yet, but you said you gave pedialyte ice chips. what are those?

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by aggieone, Mar 21, 2008
Hi BanditPages

Pedialyte ice chips is from  the bottle of Pedialyte.  It  is something you drink when you have a stomach virus.   If you are throwing up a lot plus you're running to the bathroom every five minutes, you can become dehydrated.  One can die if they become overly dehydrated.  Pedialyte helps to calm the throwing up, and rehydrates the body, plus it balances your electrolytes.    You can buy it at any pharmacy or grocery store.  Get the store brand, it is a lot cheaper and it works just as well.   You pour a thin layer in a plastic container and put it in the freezer.  SEVERAL times throughout the day, you take it out, break it into chips and give it to your dog.  Everytime you take some out, pour enough back in to start freezing.  Get the clear, don't get the fruity flavors, dogs do not like the fruity flavors.  They also are not crazy about lapping it, they seem to like it better in the form of ice chips.  Your baby may like to lap it, if not, try the ice chips.  It is really good for them, but it will not cure them if they are in renal kidney failure.  It does help them stay hydrated.   How is your baby doing.  Let me know.   Aggieone

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by BanditPages, Mar 22, 2008
Well I thought he was okay, but he wouldn't eat the chicken last night when I tried to give it to him. My dad told me to try to get him to take two pills. One was for his stomach - activated charcoal, and the other was something else and it smelled kind of like green tea leaves or something. He only swallowed half of the charcoal one and there was black all over his tongue, a little on the floor, and a nice coating on my fingers. I tried to get the green tea one in and I'm pretty sure he swallowed it, but I got my finger momentarily crushed my his jaw bone since his teeth are mostly covered in gums. He went outside a little while later and threw up, but I didn't see anything in the grass. I figured he didn't get anything up cause if he had it would have been black from the charcoal and I should have seen that. My dad said he mixed the tea one with water this morning and poured it down his throat. He also got bark powder by slippery elm and it's supposed to help his stomach. He mixed it with some water and poured that down his throat too. That's it for the update. Did your dogs breath smell when she was sick? Like a real nasty smell.. I just don't know how to describe it.

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by aggieone, Mar 22, 2008
Yes, if your dog is in renal kidney failure, his breath will smell horrible.  Heart worms and infections will also cause bad breath.  Have you taken your baby in for bloodwork?

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by BanditPages, Mar 26, 2008
He died monday morning around 1:30 am. My dad got the test results monday afternoon, it was kidney failure.

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by kak512, Jun 17, 2009
I am going through this rigbt now with my Keeno she is a 11 year old keeshond and she is my life! She was in the hospital for 3 days getting ivs etc... I said enough and brought her home. Now she is eating drinking and her breath does not smell any more but she is having a few accidents here and there with peeing. I wipe her down with baby wipes to keep her clean. How long does she have? It has been 11 days since we 1st brought her to the hospital. SHe really doesn't sleep that much - when she starts to sleep she gets a awful quiver through her body and it wakes her up - what is that from? I am giving her like 5 different meds plus the iv. Help - I just want to know how long I have with her - I can't put her down!!

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