Jan 01, 2013
Really depressed and thought about suicide a few times today. I feel unimportant, like mostly I suffer all the time and I feel hopeless. Everywhere I look are couples, turn on the tv and almost everything is about relationships (thank you to whoever made animal planet cuz its the only channel i can watch without being thoroughly depressed), get on facebook and everybody's in a relationship and talking about it. Just brokenhearted and stressed I guess. Doesn't help that I didn't have to go to work all day so I've just been in bed all day moping. **** my life. I'm just sitting in solitude hoping for the feeling to pass soon. I know I'm not good company to be around right now so maybe solitude is what's best for me. I now feel like I can't leave the house anymore. I have more problems sleeping now and wake up late in the afternoon. I've taken anything I can get my hands on to get to bed at a decent hour but none of it works. All i have time for is work... after that it's too late to leave the house by myself. I never meet anybody when I do manage to get out of the house and find it awkward initiating conversation although I try anyway. I feel extremely lonely but then again, I always do during the holidays. Oh well...