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Mar 14, 2008 - 6 comments

SO I HAVE SERIOUSLY SPENT THE PAST 2 WEEK'S WONDERING WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE ?  THING'S ARE NOT SO GOOD WITH MY HUSBAND, AND I AM STARTING TO FIND THAT I'M FALLING FOR AN OLD FLAME OF MINE..... I LOVE MY HUSBAND, BUT NOT THE WAY I SHOULD.... I LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE'S THE FATHER OF MY CHILDREN..... BUT THIS OTHER PERSON... IS SOMEONE THAT I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART..... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.....THIS OTHER PERSON, WHEN I WAS WITH HIM... MY HUSBAND AND I WEREN'T MARRIED, AND WE WERE SEPERATED.... I WAS LIVING WITH HIM AND WHEN WE COULD KISS,, OR HE WOULD TOUCH ME... I WOULD FEEL THIS FIREY PASSION DEEP DOWN.... THAT JUST MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'VE FELT BEFORE...JUST THE PASSION.... I MEAN IT'S EVERYTHING THAT A GIRL DREAM'S OF WHEN SHE'S LITTLE.. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM JUST SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW.I CAME HOME FROM WORK TODAY AND JUST ABOUT GOT MY HEAD RIPPED OFF, HAD A HUGE FIGHT WITH MY HUSBAND.... I HAVE BEEN CRYING ALL NIGHT AND JUST  CAN'T SEEM TO GET MY HEAD ON STRAIGHT.. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO........ I MEAN, I KNOW THAT IF THINGS END UP GOING CRAPPY WITH MY HUSBAND AND I, THAT FOR REASONS I CAN'T SAY RIGHT NOW HE'LL GET THE KIDS AND I'LL BE WITHOUT THEM... I JUST.......I DON'T KNOW...

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by AnitaRFrith, Mar 14, 2008
I don't want to sound rude, but old flames and indeed old flames for a reason.  Get counseling with you husband.   Just don't chase a " could be"  for what already is.  Talk to him and spill your gut without being negative or yelling.    Anything worth having is worth working for.  I'm not sure if you are religious but I just thought that I would throw this in.... when you stood at the alter you made a vow before the lord.  FOR BETTER OR WORSE, TIL DEATH DOSE US PART... just keep that in mind.  We have to answer for our actions in the end... despite popular belief.   And keep in mind one day you kids will learn about it... they will recent you for it.  It would be different if you tried with your husband and counseling doesn't make you closer.... then go your own way.  My husband was the say way.... I cried so much.  Five years worth of tears to be exact.  But I stayed and put it in the Lords hands.  My husband stopped drinking, the lies stopped, and he makes me so happy now.  We had to find a alter and we have been better since.  I hope I don't sound like I'm preaching but I know how you feel.  (I'm pentecostal.) You need the joy of the holy ghost in your life... thats how I held my head up through every thing.  GET HELP!  If you have a preacher he will counsel ya'll for free.  I'm praying for you.  Email me at ***@**** if you want to talk.    God Bless,  Anita

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by Berrygirl, Mar 14, 2008
Could Job Anita. I agree with you!

MOM23 I am praying for you too!

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by Luli12, Mar 15, 2008
Hey Mom23,

I couldn't agree with Anita more.  The grass ALWAYS looks greener on the other side.  And when things aren't going right for us, everything else looks and feels better.  Put ur trust in God.  There is NO circumstance that is either too small or too big for God.  Only He can change the way u feel and save ur marriage, but u are the one who has to decide that.  That is why God gave us free will.  But He IS in the healing business.  And who better if He is the one who created us.  He is the one who can make u whole and ur life great.  I truly hope all is well.  Think positive.  I'll be praying for u as well.  Have a great and blessed weekend.

Luli :)

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by melimeli, Apr 23, 2008
there is a difference between love and lu st love withstands the hard times... act like you would hope your dh would... you need to cut off communication with your ex and focus on your relationship...

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by natemomma27, Apr 23, 2008
the feeling of an old flame is always a nice feeling...it reminds you of what was and you think what couldve been. but they are 'old flames' for a reason...your head & your heart don't seem to be clear at the moment and the new feelings of something old (i hope that makes sense) intrigue you! seek counseling (there is no shame in asking for help!) and try to sort through some things before making a decsion that will have to be explained to your chldren one day. if after you've tried and things still aren't any better, then plan for change.

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by valleybabes, Apr 23, 2008
I agree with meli 100%  I went through all of this with my boyfriend of 13 years and now realize he is the one for me and  he has been there for me as much as I had screwd up on my life ....he never let me go.  Focus on your little one and remember family should always come first hun.

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