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why, why , why

Mar 08, 2009 - 11 comments

I am certin that i am not the only one to ask myself this question. I really thought things were going to get much better in 2009. I had successful arm surgery to help with a pinched nerver, with no complications, got a call from the transpalnt center that if everything goes good on March 18th my appointment with them, i will be at the top of the kidney transplant list..been 6 years. Since then everything has just crumbled, i had 2 grandchildren in the hospital at the same time both very ill, the baby had RSV and my grandson has had blood in hi stool and they still dont know why. My father has had 2 major surgeries, thank god he is doing ok. My youngest daughter was arressted for assult against her boyfriend, and she just doesnt really seem to care. Now on saturday i was checking my bank account online to make sure i matched with what they have. To my surprise they had a negative balance of like $7400.00, well i got on the phone with them and they tell me that a garnishnment has been palced against my account. Well i am on social securty disabilty, and the only garnishment that can be placed on ssdi is for back IRS or back child support, which this is neither of those. the bank proceeds totell me they have to freeze my account becuae it was from the court. For one thing i only get alittle over $1300 a momth dusability, i can not twithdraw any of my money, i need gas to go to dialysis 3 toimes a week i need to buy meds , food and some bills i have to pay out what little i get. I am so freaked i dont know where to start calling tomorrow to get my money released, social securty admin, the court house, or the lawyers office that palced the garnishemnet. the garnishment is from a car repo i had from when i got sick and couldnt work anymore. I am at my wits end, my nerves are shot, i cant sleep,i feel like a caged lion, i am trying to figure out who i pised off in another lifetime. i have enoughj stress with being sick, trying to keep my head above water each month and now this, i just dont know how much one person is able to handle. i feel worthless and useless and just totally defeated, i have no spirit left  to fight. And i keep asking why, why, why

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by MJIthewriter, Mar 09, 2009
I hope things get better for you soon!  I saw your SSDI post and hope this all gets worked out.  Sometimes life can really suk...

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by dominosarah, Mar 09, 2009
Jollyman.......i dont have any answers for you but i just wanted to let you know i think you are pretty great!!!!  I hope you get this resolved soon.  Sending hugs your way.........sara

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by MontanaGurl, Mar 09, 2009
ok, finally i can be of help to someone, i am a lawyer by day and broken cracker by night.  you need to get to your legal aide office, because by law, unfortunatley they can attach your ssdi and your bank account and any other assets that you have, but, in some cases they cannot take more than 30% of your usable income.  your bills will be looked at and they can deem which ones are usable in counting towards your leftover usable income and than they can only take a percentage of that income.  pm me, if i can hook you up with a lawyer or give you some legal site to the C.F.R. (code of federal regulations) federal law supercedes any other law.  i may beable to help you.

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by babypooh, Mar 09, 2009
I'm very sorry you're going through this, buddy :( I hope and will pray tonight for you and hope that things get better soon. Hang in there!!!!! Let's have faith and pray that everything will work out somehow!!!!!

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by jimi1822, Mar 09, 2009
Sending Prayers and Blessings Your way Mr Jollyman.

                                                                     jimi (littlewing)


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by Nana434, Mar 09, 2009
I'm so sorry, PLZ have faith when we think there's no way out or nothing left there alway's is something will give you are a very strong person look at everything you have overcome you can beat this to. I will keep you in my prayers.

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by Cherie762, Mar 10, 2009
Well ther is not an answer as to why he!! Id like to know why now all of a sudden after all these years they are coming after ya cause of the car...resource and figt on this are a smart can do it...I thought you called someone and got it straighted out a dialysis center and ask for a patient advocate...they will help you get to dialysis...if you have nothing else Brian you have all of us..we really do care will never leave you and will pray....just think in a few months you are gonna have your kidney  I seen a guy on tv just recently who got a kdney and he felt born again  he said by 2nd day it was like a new life..your misery is almost over....cherie

hey all when Brian gets home from having new kdney lets have a all night chat party   sound good??

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by scaredmom330, Mar 10, 2009
I hope you get this straightened out. I also try to live on SSDI and know how hard it is. please let me know what you find out, I may be in the same spot before long. Good luck, sending all my strength your way.

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by 10356, Mar 10, 2009
Hi Jollyman we have never spoken but I wanted to add my support.. get the patient advocate in to help get to dialysis.. please you are very close to getting the transplant and for this I would like to congratulate you.. I'm at stage 3 with one kidney and not allowed that second chance due to hep c stage 2 last I checked.. a new life awaits you.. try not to stress to bad ok take the advie offered my montanagirl.. I will say a prayer for you.. and your family.. warmly and with respect lesa

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by kitty51, Mar 10, 2009
Time to kick arse Jolly dont get down get mad as hell and and say F it oops now i had better not say that naughty word here!!  Play some music so damn loud and sing as loud and as bad as you can and keep doing it till you wear yourself out.If i sent you my pic now that would make you laugh man i look so bad right now.

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by stacey892, Mar 20, 2009
wow jollyman take the advice of the lawyer he seems to no what he is talking about im sorry but realize you are loved take care and i will pray for you tonight.-stacey

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