Mar 18, 2009
Tired physically and emotionally. Didnt sleep at all last night, though didnt really feel manic, maybe anxiety or another mixed episode. Hate this.
I hate the fact that I when I'm actually able to sleep, I regret the fact that I'm still alive.
On the bright side, despite anxiety attacks I was actually able to leave my house for the first time in 5 days, even if only for a while, but it all seems so pointless now.
Yesterday was the same, don't even remember it now... not that I want to, and unfortunately ended up self harming again. What is wrong with me? I stopped! Why am I back at the same place I was years ago?!