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Sep 19, 2013 - 0 comments

I have been on this merry go round far to long and I can honestly say I am done and do not ever want to take another pill. I know if I keep doing this to myself I will NEVER get better I am ready to take all the time I need to heal and not look back. I hate that it took me this long to finally say I am really done I kept saying I am done but I have never felt it like I do now. I am ready for this I am going to prove to myself and to everyone else that I don't need something to control me physically or mentally. The mental part is always the hardest for me I feel like I lost my best friend and that I will never be ok again but I know now I will be ok I was ok before I started this stupid stuff. I did have energy before and I was a really cool chick. I have cut all my sources I have told my secret and now I am ready I am ready to me be and not some fake zombie that thinks about a pill all day long and can't do anything think without one. I am going to push myself to be a better me this time. I can do it and I will do it!!

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