May 10, 2009
Man it seems like a million years have passed, but I made it to 60 days clean today. I was so wrapped up in my addicition I never thought I would have made it to this point. I was sick for almost 3 weeks, and they were a LONG 3 weeks.
My mind is clear which is great!, I have no cravings, which I give all the glory to God for and no depression and that I give all the glory to God!. I am so glad not to be under the power of opiates any longer. I have my life back, when I was on the pills I never went anywhere didnt really care if I saw my kids or grandkids. Now i am out and about, happy to be alive..I havent been this happy in such a long time
What gets me is I thought by going to a pain specialist I was doing things the right way. Now don't get me wrong I do not blame my addicition on the doctor. It was me who got himself addicted. I just didn't want to admit it to myself let alone anyone else. I wanted everyone to think that I controlled the meds but the meds controlled me.
Well the Long strange trip is still going on, I seem to rediscover something new everyday, it may be the smallest little thing, but thank God that I have my senses back to see it.
I want to thank everyone here at MH who encouraged me and told me I could do this. There are too many to single out. My MH family is such an important part of my life, I thank you all and love you all, without you guys i could not have done this...your music man....brian