All Journal Entries Journals

damn me

Apr 14, 2008 - 6 comments

Well i'm typing this for all to read i guess.  I'm  feel like i'm alone.  I hate that feeling.  Its the worse feeling of all.  Maybe that is why i'm doing drugs again.  I know that is a lame reason but hell its a reason.  I kinda feel like i'm doomed to be my father.  Hell it appears that way.  I guess I will stop using when I hit rock bottom just to pick up the pieces and start all over again.  Well i'm not to that point right now.  I'm just depressed.  

Comments
Post a Comment
340590 tn?1290952141
by cathy5841, Apr 14, 2008
black, i promise rock bottom is not where you want to be.  for some it is even death.  go see your dr.  tell her the truth.  get your meds regulated and maybe ask about suboxone.  you need to quit self-medicating and deal with your core issues.
much love
cathy

474119 tn?1273841478
by lostdreams, Apr 14, 2008
Rock bottom is not the place you want to be or go!!! Your not doomed to be like your father, i can only presume you dont want to be like him and you dont have to be! You really need to go see your dr, you really sound like you are struggling and i'm concerned for you, please seek help!!
Loads of hugs


473532 tn?1213294495
by blackheartedmind, Apr 14, 2008
Well I appreciate the help that you two are giving me.  I have hit rock bottom a few times. When I drank like a fish.  No its not a place I would want to go again.  But you have to hit bottom before you can pick yourself up again and start over.  

340590 tn?1290952141
by cathy5841, Apr 14, 2008
not true black.  you can choose to get up and do something before you hit  rockbottom.  like i said rock bottom for some is death.  just make a coice and do something now.  you can beat this...but not alone.  you need help so get it
cathy

474119 tn?1273841478
by lostdreams, Apr 14, 2008
I totally agree with cathy, GO GET SOME HELP, please. You do not want to go to that place again (rock bottom) you know what it felt like before..............not nice, and you really dont want to feel it again. YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS, before you hit rock bottom.

Avatar universal
by boldsojah4christ, Apr 14, 2008
Hey black its bold you have people here that care about you. Look at the post they left you. I know how it feels 2b depressed and feeling like you want 2 hit rock bottom. I was so depressed at one time I told my wife that I wanted 2  commit suicide no joke! But I had 2 much 2 live 4 I had a purpose on this earth and that purpose was 2 help others that are in my situation like urself. Black I'm a living testimony that you can change , but you have 2 want 2 change and God will help you change just let him n2 ur heart my brother I will keep you in my prayers I'm here if you need me bro. Bold  aka fallen angel

Post a Comment