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May 17, 2009 - 3 comments
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breakup

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meds

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devra

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Anxiety

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Insomnia

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Headaches

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tounge

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Spring

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binge purge

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cutting



I made a list of things I wanted to mention to Devra and what meds I wanted to be on, and upped. Not special, just types. I would like to go back on something for anxiety, and have my antidepressants upped. I would also like to be put on a new antipsychotic, because when we upped my Navane (which wasn't doing anything) I rashed out on my back. It's still itchy, I felt so gross. Not all gone away yet, it's been days. And my stupid tounge hurts, there's a white bump on the end, like a canker, but not. It's hurt for 5 days now, and bad, not like "I bit it" pain. Recently I've been having small slips in the binge purge area, and wanted to cut, I'm not sure what to do, what needs to be upped, I don't know anymore. I don't understand why this happens every Spring when everyone else gets happier now.

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by Cathie9696, May 18, 2009
I hope you have a good therapist and if you don't I would consider seeing someone.  I would also talk to your Dr. about your thoughts and then come up with a plan.  Its easier said than done and I can't say I understand everything that you are going through,  but I would try to find some support and take one day at a time and not think about all the bad but try to think about the good.  And like I said take one day at a time and try to stay positive.

Goodluck

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by Krisiness, May 18, 2009
Thanks. I hear that a lot, one day at a time, and really, what else can you do? It's all so unpredictable. I have two therapists actually, the real problem is me working up the courage to trust and be trusted.

And thank you
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by Cathie9696, May 18, 2009
It takes a long time and believe me when I say I can understand some of what you are going through.  I have three kids and I have one that is going through somewhat the same thing but I am sure it is different reasons.  Like you said its one day at a time and trust will come and if it doesn't you can always seek someone else.  Trust is very important and you will know it when it happens.  You look to young for someone who wants to cut.  I can understand this to.  I have two members of my family that have done the same I can say that it hasn't taken some time but she is healing.

I hope that you do well and just remember instead of hurting yourself find some other way to take your anger out.  Like a punching bag, Do your favorite hobby, write a journal.  I know I'm not a specialist but these are only suggestions.

Take care
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