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Where have I BEEN?!!! LOL UPDATE!!!!

Oct 09, 2013 - 2 comments

I know I haven't been on here lately, but I wanted to come on and update. I finally dropped my last dose of Methadone... I had tapered all the way down to 1.25 mgs. a day so finally told myself to just DO IT.. and I did lol!!!  Yesterday I think was my worse day.  I couldn't keep any food down, so I just didn't eat much..mostly crackers and gatorade.  
  To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be!  I can handle the stomach stuff WAY better than the RLS and uneasiness, which hasn't been as bad as before...knock on wood.. I don't think it could get worse after 3 days could it?  
   I renewed my drivers license the other day after not driving for almost FOUR years!!!!  SO been keeping myself busy driving my kids to and fro lol...I feel better when I get in the car and drive...but sitting around feel worse.  
  Today I backed some chicken breast with potatoes and carrots.  So far I've been able to hold it down (again knock on wood lol).  
   It's been quite a journey the past few months.. honestly didn't think I'd find the courage this soon to drop the Methadone!!!  So I'm finally here...drug free (sorta).  I'm not worried that I'll go back, because I know I can't...for my health!!!!  AND I don't have the pain I had before I was put on them..so no 'need' for them :).  I can't say I wasn't addicted to them, cuz I KNOW I was...anyone on them WILL be addicted..there's NO WAY out of it!!!!  But I DO know I didn't get on them to get 'high'...although they did make me 'high' the first few months...so sure, I liked the feeling somewhat...but then again.. didn't... weird, huh?  
  OK well.. gotta get some things done.  I hope everyone is doing well :).  Lotsa love n' hugs!!!!!

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by Heather8448, Oct 09, 2013
YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK, I have always told you this!! I am MORE than PROUD of you than you know!!! Just know if things do get worse DIG DOWN DEEP and know YOU GOT THIS!! I am ALWAYS HERE!! And I AM SOOOO GLAD YOUR BACK!!

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by RebeccaJeanine71, Oct 14, 2013
Awww... TY Heather :).  It's SO good to know there are people out there who DO understand!!!! :)  TY so much :)

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