May 28, 2009
Dammnit! Its 7 am, and I think I might have "micro slept" between 1:30 and 4:30 am. This is after taking Clonidine .8mg, Valerian Root, Diphenhydramine Hcl (Benadryl), and 10 mg Valium, Sleepy Time Tea! But I also took a Omega 3-6-9 combo pill too. I was just so anxious- at first I was zonked and thought I might have fallen asleep, but I remember checking the clock over and over....
So I then tried 20 mg Valium and read for a while. Then got hungry so munched on some candy. Thought that would do the trick cuz it did last night- i got like 7 hours it was great!!! But here I am tired as hell but no sleep. Maybe I can try again in a little bit.
So um, my boobs are getting sore and I'm peeing a lot so I'm scared that I may have just become pregnant....I don't have regular cycles so there's no way to no if its just my period coming. Last time I got off pills I had three regular cycles then got pregnant but unfortunately had a miscarriage sometime later...
I gotta get a preg test to make sure because even some of the herbal supplements I take might not do well, and Valium certainly doesn't.
I think I'm stressed about the job interview I have. Actually, I'm more stressed about the painter coming to fix the hole in our roof from last month, and he wants to come around noon- so even if I tried to sleep now I'd still have to get up and monitor, since I didn't want him in our house without me there....we're hiding two felines so you know how that goes in terms of renting apartments!
Well that concludes Day 12, on to Day 13.
I've had teary eyes, runny nose, and goosebumps off and on today, but also a lot of mania- my hubs thought I'd gotten back on the pills because I was so energetic- I think it was just because I got some good sleep the night before. Each day is so different, this damn withdrawal is a roller coaster.
I considered buying some SAM-e, but then was worried about the side effects it might cause....if anyone happens to read this and knows anything about it lemme know
Peace out and off the Trauma-dol!