Jun 08, 2009
I am so depressed, I don't really know what to do anymore. I can't take much more. I think daily almost hourly about ended it all. Just taking what pain meds I have and going to sleep. The husband doesnt want to find a job, he sits and watches t.v or sleeps all day, when he isnt on the pc playing games. I am tired of stuggling to make ends meet. I am so tired of not having anything and counting change. I am tired of my son and his girlfriend and them thinking calling me in the middle of the night complaining, drunk or high about each other. I am tired of everything. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I think I am going to leave my husband and find an apartment just for me. I need something good to happen to me. I need to feel alive again and to be happy. I really don't know the last time I was truly happy. My brother fixed my p.c yeah! but I don't know if I can afford internet connection now. Something else to worry about. I guess I am going back to Tennessee today, not sure why. I just feel so alone right now and that life just isnt worth hanging around. The other kids are grown and don't need me and I am so tired of dealing with the youngest. and basically life itself. I just don't know what to do anymore.