Thanks so much for sharing. Sorry for your loss. The waiting- roller coaster is horrible- I would like an u/s but being 6w2d- I am not sure if it would show anything.
The worst is that this will be my 3rd mc in a yr- and my drs refuses to help you out until you go a month without passing it naturally. So being that I am getting up there in age- and feel like I cant leave the house- as I might have it happen while driving or something.
I called the office twice by now. I'll be going up shortly- they close at 5pm.
In Dec. 2006, I went on my first month of Clomid. In January, I got a positive hpt (the kind that says pregnant), I called and scheduled the beta. I remember I went in for it on a Friday. It came back at 88. A great first number, they told me...congrats, they said! So, I spent the weekend telling everyone I could think of! I was so excited.
On Monday, I went in for my second beta and they called me in the afternoon. She said "are you sitting down? I'm so sorry. You aren't pregnant." I'll never forget those words for the rest of my life. I was crushed. I actually screamed "NO" in my office. She said that my beta came back at 3 or 5 or something. She told me that I had to come in the next day for another one to confirm that the number was at 0. On my way home, I called them back and asked if I could take an hpt at home that night. She said, of course, but it will be negative and I'd still have to come back the next morning.
That day started what would be the worst month of my life and the biggest roller coaster I was ever on.
At home, I took the test and MUCH to my surprise, it said pregnant. Being after hours, there was nothing that I could do with the information but be confused and excited again. The next morning, I took another beta and it was like 200 (I have the numbers written down, but it's all in storage right now). She said she doesn't know what happened...maybe the blood draw that had been negative had an air pocket or something, but I was pregnant. However, the numbers weren't where they would have liked them to be with the doubling, etc. Hurry up and wait and see....
So, the next beta, the numbers doubled and all looked well. The next beta they did not and this went on for about 1 week and a half. Blood draws every other day. Holding my breath until the call in the afternoon. It was awful. Not to mention, we were being hit by our 'blizzard' and so there would be days that the labs or RE's office would not open on time or close early! It was such an emotional time...happy and optimistic one day...depressed and sure it was over the next.
Finally, at about 8 weeks pregnant, the RE said to stop sticking me with needles and scheduled an u/s. When we had it, there was nothing in the sac. I had a blighted ovum. The worst part was that I was grieving for this child that I had thought I was carrying and all the hopes and dreams that you immediately have when you find out that you are pregnant yet I had a very clinical and logical side to me telling me it was NEVER a baby and so why the heck was I so upset?? (esp. the first time for me..I was still very naive about all the things that could go wrong in a pregnancy...I learned quickly, unfortunately)
We chose to have a D&C that weekend as I knew that there was nothing there...I could see for myself and at 8 weeks, I knew that there should have been SOMETHING.
I know there are a number of women on MH and especially on the Fertility Forum who have had slow doubling numbers, lab errors and doctors who have downright told them to have the D&C because there 'was nothing there' ... only to go on to have healthy and happy pregnancies and babies.
For me, that wasn't the case. After this miscarriage, I spent over 3 years ttc and finally got my BFP this past June! :)
I truly and sincerely hope that this all works out for you and that the beta numbers look good and double!
It's just that your story sounded so much like mine, I couldn't help but share mine. Thank you for taking the time to read it!
Oh- I wanna hear- please tell me. I've already prepared myself for the worst- which is for the best. Please tell ...
I've debated since yesterday about whether to post or not, because I never know whether to share not-so-good outcomes of my situations or not...so I'll leave it up to you ;)
Would you like to hear my story of a similar situation and how it resolved itself? It was not a positive outcome.
(I DO very VERY much hope for a wonderful, healthy and happy pregnancy for you!!!)
Oh wow, not getting them to call me back would make me crazy!! They need to understand this is a big issue for you and this is highly unfair. I am going to check in as often as I can today looking for those results. I truly believe it's good news though!! Good luck.
I had another Beta done on Thursday the 24th.
It is definitely positive.
From what I have read HCG hits your blood FIRST- then your kidneys filter your blood and then it shows in your urine- sometimes on a diluted scale- which happened to me. So it seems to always be greater concentrated in your blood. When HCG lLEAVES your system it then is last to leave the urine- but I doubt 10 days later- unless I have acute kidney failure ...probably just 2 days at max ...
I just called the office for the doctor or nurse to call me back with the results- as I know they are in. BUT they have a real problem with returning calls- and so I ahve had to GO to the office wait until they give me the results.
Will post when/if I hear something ... :)