im using cocaine nearly everyday from anything from one gram to four grams
i want to be able to wake up in the morning free from any cravings and no pain in my nose.
i have used today after a very long day at work, im a beauty thearpist and i have even used at work.
i can fuction normally whilst using at work as i control it but at home i cant seem to be able to even have a conversation as i just want to do more and its effecting my brain fuction i cant seem to carry out normal tasks.
i had one gram today, yesterday i had 4 grams , i hardly slept then had to go to work this morning. i promise myself every morning thats the last time, i tell myself how stupid i am but then during the day the same routine happens of calling my contacts, i can get it at any time and on tick which is why im out of control
i have been getting tight sharp pains in my heart and i had my first nose bleed last nite but i still went on to do more
i want to be free of coke, i look back on how i used to be and i wish i could just be a normal mum
i have to wonderful boys they r my world but i know if i carry on i wont be here much longer
i want to seek help but dont want to go to my doctor
i would appreciate any advice