I'm 17 and I've been dealing with my eating disorder since I was 13.
I just feel so stuck, depressed, and helpless.
When it started it was starving myself for days at a time, when my mom found out I wasn't eating, I started to eat again except just purge afterwards.
Now a daily thing for me is: Starve all day as long as possible, some days it will be all day with no food or no more then 500 cals.
Other days it will be starving until I need to eat, then binge, or even eat just a "regular meal", and purge right away.
Lately I've been getting more comments then ever on my weight and about how skinny I am, but I just don't feel like I am, I still feel huge.
And also I have been abusing drugs to loose weight easier..
My question is, what do I do?
I know somewhere deep down I want to get better, but I know if I go and talk to someone, I'm not going to put in any effort out of their office to get better.
There's no way I'll force myself to eat, and get fat.
But I am so sick of this!
I also don't want my mom to know, help pleaseeee.