racing thoughts,anger,voices

[toby440]

Im 16 and I feel like Im going crazy. When I wake up in the morning its one thing or the other. Some mornings I wake up and I get something random and completley irrelivent stuck in my head and thats all I can think about the rest of the day. I go through every senerio and situation possible to every little thing. I'll be watching tv and someone gets shot or dies and I go through what would have happened if this happened instead of that? What if that happened to me? And its not just if someone dies its everything. If I see a bank get robbed I go through every posible way you could rob a bank. If a show comes on about some creature that lives in a ocean miles away, I think about what if its im my pond and I go swimming with it? What else is in there? Then when I go to bed I have completley forgotten aobut it.Then I try to remember it and I cant but I know its there. Somethimes I go right to sleep other nights I cant go to sleep, and either way I will wake up around two or three, because something works its way in my head and I have to anilyze it.Its like I never go to sleep I just think even when I dream, in the middle of ti I will just stop dreaming and acctualy think about something. The next morning I might wake up I will have a voice in my head narrating every thing I do. I mean every little thing. "She got up, not wanting to, her left eye hurts, she stumbles to the light switch and turns it on at the same time she turns off the fan, she has gotten good at this,doing it every day for years,sort of proud of this accomplishment." And it goes on like that every single little detail of eveything I do all day,I tell it to shut up constantly,with my conscience, and yes there is a diffrence between the two. It drives me crazy. The next worse thing is the voices. Sometimes three of them sometimes twenty. I dont know who the voices are or sound like its not men or women. Just voices. They pick up every little thing and fight over it. Things that dont mean anything. I will be walking through the house and a voice will start talking about something I heard at school three days earlier, from someone I dont even know just walking down the hallway, and they will fight and argue about it and disscuss it over and over, I cant concentrate on anything.I tel them to shut up with my own voice in my head and they laugh and say no you shut up. And when I get told to do something the voices repeat it over and over and over.Then when I get told to do it again I get mad because its like ive heard it a hundred times. I get mad at every little thing too. I can be in the best mood ever and then in the same minute I turn into the meanest person you've met.And no matter what it is I and find a way to blame it on you or find a way to connect you to it in my head. And then Im like that for the rest of the day, evey little thing makes me mad, just stupid little things that dont mean anything. I get so mad I talk to inanimate objects. If I drop something I say something mean to it under my breath. Sometimes it gets horrible and all three can happen in one day. It all goes through my head so much I just hear white noise a, constant ringing. I get so mad because I never talk to anybody about it, I never have, and when I did some would say I understand adn theres no way anyone could understand this unless they lived it.  what is this?  what can i do about it?  

[ILADVOCATE]

Some of what you describe also sounds like bipolar disorder (racing thoughts, inability to focus) and schizophrenia and bipolar can overlap such as with bipolar with psychotic features or schizoaffective disorder (as I have). There are many number of things going on but you should definitely see a psychiatrist and explain it all to them and as well keep a mood tracker here to see if that varies as well and print out the results to the psychiatrist when you see them.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

It would be well worth going to see a psychiatrist about this.  I'm guessing you are suspecting you have schizophrenia because you posted here.  It can be diagnosed solely by two different symptoms which you discussed both of which were the running commentary from a voice and multiple voices having conversations with each other.  I can't tell you what you have though, only someone trained to diagnose people with mental illness such as a psychiatrist can.  Medications can be of help if you do have schizophrenia.  I can only partially understand and sympathize with you as I've only had one voice in my head at a time.