Borderline

[vegan1976]

I have been diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder.  Well, one doctor says Borderline, another will say Bipolar, they dont know I guess.  I just know that nobody will accept me as their patient.  I have cutting issues & suicidal thoughts that are strong.  I am not in treatment now...mainly because doctors either drop me, hospitalize me involuntarily, or refer me.  Florida isn't great for mental health treatment (in my experience).

Anyway, I have been told I have delusions.  I know I have an invisible spirit guide from Brazil who plays jokes on me and communicates with me via number sequences, coincidences, and songs on the radio.  Last night, I was sore from exercising extensively.  I was laying in a fetal position when my body became immobile, numb, & paralyzed.  My spirit guide told me that I was going to be alright and he spooned me, submerging his soul into mine, creating an intense energy flow into my body for 1 to 2 minutes.  Right afterwards, my soreness went away and I was good as new.

My question is:  am I having delusions?  Was this a delusion?  Should I see a psychiatrist?  Are delusions part of Borderline personality disorder or could I have something else?  I guess, what is your opinion & what is my best course of action?

[Ted A Grossbart, Ph.D.]

I have already offered you what I can offer you by way of answering your questions and making suggestions.  I'm sorry that I can't do more to help with your pain. We have reached the limits of what we can do here.

tg

[vegan1976]

I comulsively cut myself to remind myself that I am a spirit trapped in a human body.  

[vegan1976]

Try this again...my email:  losdifeosyahoocom

[vegan1976]

yeah, okay...so you hate me.  I'm just so freaking confused & don't know what to do.  Ambivalent about help.  I learned in my spiritual book that I can't commit suicide cuz I'll have to do this life over again...lessons the same but harder.  I told my spirit guide Manny that if he is real, then a red rose needs to be brought to me within a week. Sorry for troubling you again.  You can always email me at ***@****.

[Ted A Grossbart, Ph.D.]

Have we talked before?  Are you the one who is married,  works for a car company and the spirit guide is named Manny?

tg