I am a 47 year old single mother with two teenage boys and a demanding job. I have a family history of anxiety/depression and OCD. Last yr. I was diagnosed with ADD and take Adderall XR 30mg. I have tried many anti-depressants in the past and most recent Zoloft 50mg. I still have had no energy, no short-term memory, am exhausted, don't sleep well.
I enjoy my job although it is quite demanding. I have been working 50 to 55 hours per week in order to not get behind (ADD & OC). Until recently I got along very well with my boss and everyone. I seem to have lost my common sense and have been stepping on a lot of toes. I was written up for violating a couple of company policies and snapping at my supervisor. When these things occurred I truly did not think I was doing anything wrong, but in retrospect I know I was out of line. I have also been very short tempered with my children lately.
I have no self-esteem and have a hard time getting over my mistakes. I seem to keep falling into the same black hole no matter what medication I take. I now feel I need to find a new job as I have caused too much damage. I am sick at the thought of this as I am already overwhelmed with responsibilities outside of work.
Before I was diagnosed with ADD I had been on Effexor which seemed to work best for me, but my doctor hestiated to prescribe it with the Adderall. The Zoloft isn't working, obviously. I had such high hopes with Adderall, but it doesn't seem to help me one way or the other. I can't say I am really any more focused and I certainly don't have any more energy.
I have decided to return to counseling, although I can't say it helped much in the past and it is so expensive. Please give me some options here as I don't know what to do.
Thank you for your consideration.