Hi,
thanks for helping me, I am a 18 years old male
For all my life i've been a straigh man, I remember dreaming of girls and getting arroused, I masturbated to straight pornography, and I knew I was totally straight. But 1 month ago, I became arroused after reading a gay story somewhere. And then I became asking me if I was gay or not constantly, I did get arroused thinking about penises, but I just don't understand, i never been like that. Did I turned gay? I've always been straight, I cannot sleep at night anymore, I dont know what to do. Is it hormonal? Please help im totally depressed, when I am alone, I cry.I wanna get back to what I was before. I am always thinking about it and can't get it out of my head. Plus for a while, I seem to get less erections then before while watching pornography. Am I bi? I just don't understand what is happening to me. I have a girlfriend that I think love, I have seen her this weekend and we french kissed and hug and I had an erection.
P.S.
I took an apointment with a psychiatrist for this week, I think I am in severe depression. I though of commiting suicide several times
Thanks alot