Need advise

[ziros]

Ever Since High school i feared and had occasional thoughts of death and diseases. Not greusome just like "how horrible it would be to have this Or that" SInce early sept before going to sleep I have had thoughts of how horrible it would be to have cancer or die In a auto or air accident i put away these thoughts away after a few minutes then goto sleep. since Early sept I have developed several physical symptoms that are being worked up for MS and other possible causes My worst nightmare has come true. My vision and quality of life have and are dwindling, I fell I Might have something and since I already have a predispotionary fear you could imagine how stressed I am.
I have Nolonger a social life I feel pains and weaknesses throught/swallowing problems, and might have some anxiety. My Neurologist puts me an xanax and buspar, Stopped xanax and slowly lowereing buspar, developed tinnutitis, and dont have any answers yet Maybe that all this way tied to my OCD obout death, but I think that it was just a coincidence wich fuels my anxiety.
Can OCD Lead to a downward spiral of diminshing health that is tied to the pshyche. My health I Hold Dear, It tearing me apart to think that is might or is being compromised. I will probably seek couseling One way or another I Live alone and used to live with a attention demanding female. even after we seperated I am stress prone and very rigid at times, everything must make sense or it is false or a scam. I am a serious guy, No nonsense, But I feel so helpless, wherass befor I felt King of the world what advise can you suggest.
Thank You

[ziros]

I Know believe that My symptoms Lead Towards Hypothyroid, that would explain The depression, and the organic symptoms , I have a appt with the endocrinologist on the 7th oj january so far from now it seems since I started fgeeling this way. I dont Know how I am going to get thru the holidays, I am very liked and always wanted by family and friends, That i dont want to disapoint, But I feel so Bad. Thats For your Information. I really appreciate it.

[JaiHill]

I believe that the mind is powerful enough to make the body react.  I believe strongly that making a conscience effort to think about healing will make your life much easier.

Try making a balance sheet, i.e. I can hardly swallow, but the food is good for my body and will make me stronger.  Do this with every negative.  Put a "but" behind it that reflects the positive when ever you can.  Eventually you will see there IS a balance to the human body.

Do some imaginary healing.  Lie down in a comfortable setting and imagine a warm, healing ball of light passing into your feet, traveling up your body and out of our head.  Spend extra time with the light on the parts of your body that are giving you the most trouble.  Do this in the morning and at night before bed.

Do not stop your treatment from outside sources.  Realize that your body has ways of telling you what is wrong, but you have to take the time to listen to it!

Good Luck!

Jai

[ziros]

Thanks for your input, but this Happened Before The sept 11 tradegy, as I Had no Idea That It was going to Happen, It could Not Have Been the cause if any of my situation. Thank You anyways.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

Although you should continue your workup because there may be an organic disease process going on, I would look elsewhere. You present a very common reaction to the sept 11 tragedy..It has unleashed these kind of somatic symptoms and fears and an exacerbation of pre-existing fears. You can go to my website, masteringstress.com and use a free program about terror and safety. that may get you started on analyzing this particular fear, and if it helps, it may diminish your other fears.

Be sure and follow through with counseling and talk about the sept.11 impact on you.