For six months, I was deeply, chronically depressed. I couldn't bear to be on this earth, but was not about to commit suicide. I felt like life was too much for me, and spent most of my time sleeping. Every night, I asked God to take me from this earth. One day recently, I woke up and felt like the part of me that fought with herself and God, the one who couldn't deal with anything in daily life, simply left. I feel like I am what remains, with the same memories and abilities, but not tortured on a daily basis by anger, hurt, and depression. I no longer feel like I want to leave this earth, and I simply carry about the duties of my daily life instead of sleeping all day. I wonder if I've experienced dissociation here -- perhaps from my former self? I don't feel quite like the same person, yet I've researched depersonalization, dissociative identity disorder, dissociative fugue, and other similar disorders, and I don't believe I've suffered any of the above. I don't feel numb, I don't watch my life from a distance as if it's a movie, and have no loss of time or memory. What has happened to me? Is my brain protecting me by preventing me from fighting with myself? My days just seem very straightforward now, and I can actually do things I need to do without worrying and second-guessing myself. I don't beg for death every day. But I wonder about my former self. She seems to have left and taken all her emotional baggage with her. She had a relationship with God. I don't. If this were a disorder, wouldn't I be worse than I was before? I'm very curious about this and look forward to your feedback/explanation.