I am 28/female. Never had any major health problems, just the occasional cold/flu.
I live approximately 2400 miles from my parents so I only get to see them maybe 2-3 times/year. On December 9th, my parents were supposed to come see me for the holidays. Instead, I received a phone call informing me that my mom had been in a horrible car crash and was air lifted to the hospital. I went through a couple days of not knowing if she would live or die, calling my dad ever few minutes to get updates. I felt so helpless. She went through numerous surgeries, one being due to an aneurysm that they found. I flew down to see her 2 days after the accident and at that time she was in ICU in a drug induced coma. She was in the hospital for 2 months, but finally pulled through and just recently made it back home.
The reason I am giving these details is because since this accident, I constantly have had thoughts that something is wrong with me. I always feel sick and CONSTANTLY looking up symptoms and causes for every little pain/abnormality I have and worrying myself sick over what I find. Bumps I've had my whole life I suddenly think are cancer. I found a tiny (and I mean tiny) freckle/mole on my back that I never noticed before and suddenly think I have skin cancer.
I don't know what is wrong with me. I am driving myself and my husband crazy because I am constantly poking at myself and feeling for lumps/bumps and telling him to look as well. I feel like it's taking over my life. I can't concentrate on anything because I'm always thinking I'm sick. Why am I feeling this way? Is it PTSD? What can I do to make myself stop these thoughts that something is wrong and start enjoying my life with my 2 beautiful baby girls?