Ive Had This Brown Spot In My Eye For A While. I saw a specialist & he was willing to do surgery but I don't want to because I was only 10. Now I'm 16. I want it removed because I have. Very low self esteem. I started to have suicide thoughts but they faded away because I got confidence that some way it will be removed. I'm just so desperate right now in life. I want it removed & I know it's possible . Cosmetic or regular idk I want it removed. It is on the surface of the sclera and it follows my eye of I look left it goes left. It has increased in size. Please is there anyway? It's like. Nexus of ota? Idk I'm seeing an optholomogy? I spelled it wrong I'm scheduled in October to see if the size increased but me & my parents think its a waste of time because we have waited so much at a specialist. If its cosmetic we are welling to pay.. Please help