Anxiety is ruining my life

[igp]

Hye joggen, and all member

i had protected sex with sw, and i know protected sex is just protected.. i never ever do this in my entire life, this 1 minutes encounter really change my life to disaster... , i've done 6 hiv test all negative..  at 10,20,23 day i've done rapid hiv test and full std test.. all negative..  went to local clinic do combo test 6 , 10 and 13 week all negative .. for 13 week also i check for hep a,b,c , herpes, all come back to negative.. how to move on with this guy ?? please help me... my doctor already suggest me to stop browsing the net and she very sure 99.99999% that i dont have hiv.. how to digest the fact i dont have risk and im negative??? . i love my family and my wife... any advise guy?

[Trinifool]

Remember we are only human and we make mistakes. Temptation will always be there and we need to be strong and say "No" or else we will be back to square one again. Keep the faith as a fellow man in rhe same situation i am here for you my brother. Stay well and be safe.

[igp]

thanks joggen and trinifool for the advise.. i'll do my best to forgive myself and move on from this.. happy new yer all

[Trinifool]

Joggen i am working on my guilt and axiety with my therapist and it is helping me alot. The only thing is I think I am addicted to med help and testing and must stop this as I truely believe this is fueling back up my worry, guilt and anxiety. It is really hard ! Sometimes i feel so frustrated and cant stop thinking about it. I will be seeing my therapist in 3 weeks time and will obviously express my feelings to her and hopefully this lingering feelings will go away. YOu have alot of patience dealing with worrysome people like us and God will bless you for your good work.

[Trinifool]

You need to go see a therapist asap. This will really help you as the guilt and axiety is wrecking my life as well. Be positive and go see the therapist buddy. We are both HIV negative and cannot infect our wives and we need to get these worrysome thoughts out of our minds. As you i know i freaked and do more tests that came out negative but the thoughts are still lingering in my head and i am fighting it as best as I could. I know it seems hard but we have to put this behind us in order to live for our wives and kids. I truelly regret the crap i did but God knows best and we need to trust in him and all will be well. THE MIND IS A VERY POWERFUL THING and i have learnt my lesson well and will never do this crap again as I hate feeling like this and I love my family lots. Be strong and good will prevail.

[joggen]

Work on your guilt with a mental health professional.